mavericka

so we did the hallow thing tonight to miss the rush. i started by getting an obscenely large cherry vanilla coke and caffinating myself till sundown. Then we went to a haunted house. The playhouse actually does the haunted house so we knew everyone there. Ooh oh when the ghosts know your name. As soon as we got there it was announced like "Elvis has entered the building" cause mom is on the board of directors. It was nice seeing everyone. I guess this was a really normal day for me because it didn't feel painful being out around people. It was nice smiling to everyone. I don't talk much when moms around, i feel redundant, like theres two of us. She had her game face on and was bright and cheerful. She doesn't like haunted houses but it was good for her to go and see as a member. She stayed bright and cheerful the whole time saying "No Thank You" to creatures wanting to suck her blood and the like while i was about to wet my pants the whole time. I had to force myself to keep my eyes open so i wouldn't cheat myself out of the expirience. I mean i know its all not real but my instincts are still screaming "be scared! be scared!" I dont' know why none of it scared her.
Then i did the party thing, i left just before the guys had had enough to drink to think i looked good. Funny how i'm suddenly Miss America when everyones drunk and i'm one of the only unattatched chickies there. Greg was like "Are you a celebrity or something? your just making an appearance?" and i'm thinking yes asshole thats exactly it.
Then I had some chocolate milk and watched leatherheads hehe. I have some simpler plans for the real holiday.