maurauder

It's pouring rain here and I'm so sad but in a good way. In the way that Tom Waits songs hurt so much it consumes you, it hurts to hear him and it hurts to look at him, beauty like that makes it hurt and so good, so sad. Last night was the best night of my life and now it's 18 hours later, 900 miles later, and I'm sitting at my desk doing claculus and it's raining and I spent the weekend with Him, who still breaks my heart every time that he looks at me, and I'm sad in that good way.

Sometimes it's just sad to be alive.