self improvement is masturbation, they say.
I remember the day I decided that my life was a movie. that I would live my life as if it were a film, and since I would of course want it to be some brilliant Cannes winning indie film that revolutionized postmodern thinking (*gets out the lube*), this decision had some implications.
one, it meant that I must...
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I remember the day I decided that my life was a movie. that I would live my life as if it were a film, and since I would of course want it to be some brilliant Cannes winning indie film that revolutionized postmodern thinking (*gets out the lube*), this decision had some implications.
one, it meant that I must...
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tonight I watched a documentary on CNBC about Wal Mart, and it got me thinking about corporate glabalisation. they interviewed the CEO and his answer to every single question was something along the lines of "well, look at how many customers we have. you can't argue with demand! woo hoo, lets all beat off to capitalism!"
so then I did this, which, before you feel...
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so then I did this, which, before you feel...
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thefuckoffkid:
I'll read and comment if you reply occasionally 
thejuanupsman:
I lurk your journal every once in a while. I just don't usually have anything meaningful to say.
Kind of like now.
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Kind of like now.
[Edited on Jun 27, 2005 5:01PM]
The Grinnings Of Miss MoXie ~
On Friday I took my last final, left work early, and embarked on a cross country journey. Because of scheduling discrepancies between my old city college and my new University, I am sitting at the dawn of a glorious 4 1/2 month summer vacation. And best of all, I am sitting at this particular dawn, in painbearers living room....
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On Friday I took my last final, left work early, and embarked on a cross country journey. Because of scheduling discrepancies between my old city college and my new University, I am sitting at the dawn of a glorious 4 1/2 month summer vacation. And best of all, I am sitting at this particular dawn, in painbearers living room....
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quixotica:
i just wanted to say i really loved your comix pics. they were amazing! wow.
pb:
i'm going to be a beach bum. it'll be fun.
When she was finishing up her last semester at CC, my good friend Gretchen took every single one of her finals drunk, including her 8am calculus final (which she aced, after we stayed up all night drinking tequila).
And now, finishing up my last semester at CC, battling a raging case of senioritis, I'm thinking of following her lead.
*hiccup*
cheers!, to tomorrows fizziks final!...
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And now, finishing up my last semester at CC, battling a raging case of senioritis, I'm thinking of following her lead.
*hiccup*
cheers!, to tomorrows fizziks final!...
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zephyra:
good luck.
pb:
you know, you gotta get behind the mule
in the morning
and plow
a little over24 hrs geek lvr
in the morning
and plow
a little over24 hrs geek lvr
last night my friend told me that I had become a caricature of myself.
I told him that I had fallen in love with an Air Force Officer, and he said, "well of course you have. fucking of course. God, you are always just so Sayward. Can you ever just not be Sayward? Could you ever like, not wear your belt backwards?"
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I told him that I had fallen in love with an Air Force Officer, and he said, "well of course you have. fucking of course. God, you are always just so Sayward. Can you ever just not be Sayward? Could you ever like, not wear your belt backwards?"
he's got...
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pb:
i like to think you fell in love with this guy because of who he is, not what he is.
and i miss you too, Mox. kinda like a gin n tonic misses ice and lime. it's just not the same.
and i miss you too, Mox. kinda like a gin n tonic misses ice and lime. it's just not the same.
Lately I've been entertaining fantasies that disregard everything I've spent the past three years working so hard for.
Sometimes I worry that I'm too fickle for a 100,000 dollar education...
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I find it interesting that everybody assumed that the above statements were somehow related to my recent romantic experiences.
You SG people certainly are a bunch of saps!
Come on guys, I'm not that...
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Sometimes I worry that I'm too fickle for a 100,000 dollar education...
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I find it interesting that everybody assumed that the above statements were somehow related to my recent romantic experiences.
You SG people certainly are a bunch of saps!
Come on guys, I'm not that...
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fractal:
I realized that my earring had hit the touchpad on the phone and shut the microphone off, so perhaps I should disable the touch pad while I'm on calls.
reacher:
Come on guys, I'm not that frivolous...
To be fair, that's what I said it was "just a guess". I wasn't sure. But for the record, I am that frivolous.
To be fair, that's what I said it was "just a guess". I wasn't sure. But for the record, I am that frivolous.
what have i become?
my sweetest friend
everyone i know
goes away in the end
my sweetest friend
everyone i know
goes away in the end
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raptus_regaliter:
I will let you down.
I will make you hurt.
I will make you hurt.
dead_ringer:
i hurt myself today.
to see if i still feel.
i focus on the pain - the only thing that's real.
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Anyway, thanks for the compliment in the six millionth SG current events abortion thread. I like a lot of your pictures. Those segway's (sp?) are hillarious! Check some of mine out - not as hillarious, but some of them are alright.
to see if i still feel.
i focus on the pain - the only thing that's real.
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Anyway, thanks for the compliment in the six millionth SG current events abortion thread. I like a lot of your pictures. Those segway's (sp?) are hillarious! Check some of mine out - not as hillarious, but some of them are alright.
Yesterday I stood in a kitchen the size of a cubicle and prepared a Passover Sedar alongside three generations of women.
These are the sorts of things that fill my heart with happiness, and hope.
These are the sorts of things that fill my heart with happiness, and hope.
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thefuckoffkid:
I thought I had a mysterious new friend for a moment there! But it's my mysterious old friend
dollbabyamy:
That's awesome- I wish people in my family did things like that. Seeing several generations of us together at once is a rare occurence.
Be ashamed to die until you have won some victory for humanity.
Horace Man, first president of Antioch College
Horace Man, first president of Antioch College
dollbabyamy:
I like the new name! If you legally change it...think of this...one day you will be "Moxie Toxic Painbearer"...that sounds super fucking rad.
reacher:
People who cry and complain about our world and do nothing about it has to be one of my biggest pet peeves.
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mqx:
Hey, you were serious about the name! Good for you.
Lucky I'm still lame enough to still only have 10 friends, so I get the profile pic.
Lucky I'm still lame enough to still only have 10 friends, so I get the profile pic.
reacher:
Moxie_Toxic is much cooler. I think you should keep it.
Today marks one week. One full week without cigarrettes.
On day four I almost broke down, almost caved. I was so fucking close. I told my wonderfully supportive Boy that I was sorry I had to fail him, told all my friends I wouldn't be able to do it, and resigned myself to another failed attempt. Except I said I'd do it in the morning....
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On day four I almost broke down, almost caved. I was so fucking close. I told my wonderfully supportive Boy that I was sorry I had to fail him, told all my friends I wouldn't be able to do it, and resigned myself to another failed attempt. Except I said I'd do it in the morning....
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dollbabyamy:
Woo hoo! I knew you could do it! You just had to find the routine that worked best for you! Congrats on going a whole week! If I had any extra money whatsoever, I'd send you a congratulations little present! I'm proud of you!
pb:
this sucks
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[Edited on Apr 19, 2005 6:16PM]
Oh Holy Hell Mary mother of God, this fucking sucks what the fuck I want a cigarrette motherfucking right now wow this is the hardest nic fit I've had so far jesus christ my whole body is hurting and aching and it would be so easy just so fucking easy to fail.
3 days
3 days
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zephyra:
I used the pills, Wellbutrin, when I quit. I don't usually do things like that, but it helped A LOT. I had smoked for 10 years, and had quit like 4 times before that. It works.
I've been awesome, besides the failure to get the Boston job. I was kinda scared about freezing my butt off though, so I suppose it's a good thing. I'm keeping my eyes peeled for an Austin job. Oh, and I still love being with my girlfriend!
How have you been?
I've been awesome, besides the failure to get the Boston job. I was kinda scared about freezing my butt off though, so I suppose it's a good thing. I'm keeping my eyes peeled for an Austin job. Oh, and I still love being with my girlfriend!
How have you been?
misnomer:
'smooth'?! you seem pretty smooth to me
rocks were nice, love that kinda stuff I've not normally got a lot of tolerance for that, but it just seemed heartwarming in your case
like the picture blogging style too
rocks were nice, love that kinda stuff I've not normally got a lot of tolerance for that, but it just seemed heartwarming in your case
like the picture blogging style too
The unfortunate part of living life as a movie is the lack of an editing room. There's just so much filler, and not enough action, or true emotion through a good bit of it. Alot of the acting seems trite, but the real surges of humanity make that perspective worth while.