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maybe it'll be better if I give this to the internets and since I have no friends here this is the place to do it. The subject is I guess friends and enemies.
let's go backwards.
I can write a long story to no one or a short story for me guess which one I choose.
I too often think of my life as a movie and when I do there are 3 arch rivals(?) I always come back to. I watch from my computer spy when possible and try to figure out the score. I hope on the surface and well deep down that their lives are horrible. part of me knows they will fail based on knowledge of their character flaws. The problem is the hunger. I need to know. all the time. now of the 3 foes 1 has been vanquished... second kid with a 20 year old idiot, no job, coke habit, and still hasn't finished the last semester needed to get his BFA. I win. the second is not as easy. Let's see he has all the friends we once shared ... pretty much... but it really only bothers me when I see pictures of him with my friends. Luckily for me I can block out my feeling pretty well sometimes so I don't think about them. part of me hates them as well so fuck it. the curious case of the third could take years to explain so we skip to the begining... we were friends... the middle... she betrayed me..... the sorta important fact... she's bat shit crazy... now... she's on the outside very happy. i want her to fail. I do know everytime my name is mentioned she loses her cool... that I like. all my evil fantasies involve her. but I am content to watch herself destruct. sorta content. .... I also am very much sexually attracted to her. bat shit cray.. wanna see her naked.. worst human being I have ever known.... curious about her nipple type(light, dark, small , big...puffy?) I can only compare this feeling to the guilt of watching a friend hurt himself .
ok I am tired I will continue this rant
later
let's go backwards.
I can write a long story to no one or a short story for me guess which one I choose.
I too often think of my life as a movie and when I do there are 3 arch rivals(?) I always come back to. I watch from my computer spy when possible and try to figure out the score. I hope on the surface and well deep down that their lives are horrible. part of me knows they will fail based on knowledge of their character flaws. The problem is the hunger. I need to know. all the time. now of the 3 foes 1 has been vanquished... second kid with a 20 year old idiot, no job, coke habit, and still hasn't finished the last semester needed to get his BFA. I win. the second is not as easy. Let's see he has all the friends we once shared ... pretty much... but it really only bothers me when I see pictures of him with my friends. Luckily for me I can block out my feeling pretty well sometimes so I don't think about them. part of me hates them as well so fuck it. the curious case of the third could take years to explain so we skip to the begining... we were friends... the middle... she betrayed me..... the sorta important fact... she's bat shit crazy... now... she's on the outside very happy. i want her to fail. I do know everytime my name is mentioned she loses her cool... that I like. all my evil fantasies involve her. but I am content to watch herself destruct. sorta content. .... I also am very much sexually attracted to her. bat shit cray.. wanna see her naked.. worst human being I have ever known.... curious about her nipple type(light, dark, small , big...puffy?) I can only compare this feeling to the guilt of watching a friend hurt himself .
ok I am tired I will continue this rant
later
no reason to read this crap