I really have to change the way I look at the world and people around and really start to practice that you only get what you give and all I want is love...so from now I will try my hardest to be a more caring, understanding, respectful person...the way God intended me to me...and I thank God every day for my sobriety...I really dont know where I would be without being able to talk to some who isnt about to judge or talk back to me...Im thankful for my beautiful, healthy family and I will CHERISH every moment I am given with them and know that Nick was sent to me by a guardian angel and saved my life....Im so thankful for him. And I hope that my parents who have provided me with a loving and nuturing home my entire life live to be a good old age and enjoy the rest of their lives with good health...no matter how far away I am ...Newfoundland will always be my home...the Ocean is in my blood. 53 days till I smell the salt air and touch the water again...I will cry and take the moment in and hold it forever in my heart.
Also...I just want to mention that I now have days where I no longer crave a drink. That for me is a huge acomplishment and even if I am having a day where I think I would feel so much better if I had a drink to calm my nerves...I have hope that tomorrow wont be like that and I wont think about walking to a beer store...thank you to all my sg friends who have been there for me the whole way and know how hard its been for me...youve put up with my rants and raves and my crying and hurtful words towards myself...how you did ...I'll never know...but because of what you showed to me...a true friendship I will be a better person for it and you have made me learn to listen more .... to what people are feeling...not just what theyre saying...you might be a million miles away from me..but somedays...youre all I have...and im so thankful you are there when I need you...and I wont name names.....you know who you are <3
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Also...I just want to mention that I now have days where I no longer crave a drink. That for me is a huge acomplishment and even if I am having a day where I think I would feel so much better if I had a drink to calm my nerves...I have hope that tomorrow wont be like that and I wont think about walking to a beer store...thank you to all my sg friends who have been there for me the whole way and know how hard its been for me...youve put up with my rants and raves and my crying and hurtful words towards myself...how you did ...I'll never know...but because of what you showed to me...a true friendship I will be a better person for it and you have made me learn to listen more .... to what people are feeling...not just what theyre saying...you might be a million miles away from me..but somedays...youre all I have...and im so thankful you are there when I need you...and I wont name names.....you know who you are <3
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VIEW 3 of 3 COMMENTS
"Only those who dare to fail greatly can ever achieve greatly." by Robert F. Kennedy!!!
MARYJAY, ALL YOU HAVE TO BE IS YOUR NATURAL SELF; INTELLIGENT, CARING, UNDERSTANDING, RESPECTFUL, PASSIONATE, AND A LOVING INDIVIDUAL!!!
MARYJAY, I AM THANKFUL FOR YOUR BEAUTIFUL, HEALTHY FAMILY, WHO CHERISH YOU WITH LOVE, UNCONDITIONALLY!!! I AM THANKFUL FOR YOUR LOVING PARENTS, WHO HAVE PROVIDED YOU WITH A LOVING AND NURTURING HOME YOUR ENTIRE LIFE!!! I TOO PRAY THAT YOUR LOVING PARENTS LIVE A HEALTHY AND BLESSED LIFE FOR MANY, MANY, MANY YEARS TO COME!!!
MARYJAY, I AM THANKFUL THAT GUARDIAN ANGELS INTERVENED, AND BROUGHT NICK INTO YOUR LIFE, GIVING YOU AND HIM PURPOSE!!!
MARYJAY, I AM THANKFUL FOR YOUR SOBRIETY!!!
MARYJAY, I AM THANKFUL THAT YOU HAVE DAYS THAT YOU NO LONGER CRAVE A DRINK, AND THOSE DAYS WILL TURN INTO WEEKS; MONTHS; YEARS!!! THE CRAVING WILL PAST!!!
MARYJAY, I AM THANKFUL FOR SUICIDEGIRLS' MEMBERS, STAFF, AND SUICIDEGIRLS, WHO FORM A BEAUTIFUL COMMUNITY OF SUPPORTIVE LOVING PEOPLE, WHO DO NOT JUDGE YOU AND WHO DO NOT TALK BACK TO YOU IN CRITICISM OF YOUR LIFE; BUT ARE THERE FOR YOU!!!
PAY THE LOVE FORWARD!!!! {{{PAY IT FORWARD!!!!}}}
MARYJAY, "IF WE LET OUR THOUGHTS WANDER, THEY NATURALLY TURN TO SUBJECTS THAT BRING SPECIAL PLEASURE, TO WARMHEARTED WORDS AND TO GENEROUS DEEDS, TO KINDNESSES WE WILL ALWAYS TREASURE!!! IF WE LET OUR THOUGHTS WANDER WHEREVER THEY WILL; SO OFTEN, WHEN THEY COME TO REST, IT IS WITH PEOPLE WHO HAVE MEANT SUCH A LOT IN OUR LIVES, THE PEOPLE WE HAVE COME TO LOVE BEST!!!"
MARYJAY, "HOPE IS THE THING WITH FEATHERS THAT PERCHES IN THE SOUL, AND NEVER STOPS AT ALL, AND SWEETEST IN THE GALE IS HEARD, AND SORE MUST BE THE STORM, THAT COULD ABASH THE LITTLE BIRD THAT KEPT SO MANY WARM!!! I HAVE HEARD IN THE CHILLIEST LAND; AND ON THE STRANGEST SEA, YET, NEVER, IN EXTREMITY, IT ASKED A CRUMB OF ME!!!
MARYJAY, I BELIEVE THAT PEOPLE ARE DRAWN TOGETHER FOR MANY REASONS AND THAT EVERYTHING IN LIFE HAPPENS FOR A REASON!!! THERE IS SO MUCH I WISH FOR YOU, EVERYDAY!!! I WISH YOU DREAMS AND LAUGHTER; LOVE AND JOY IN YOUR HEART!!! I WISH YOU HOPE FOR EACH MORNING AND CONTENTMENT FOR EACH EVENING!!! I WISH YOU HAPPINESS AND PRIDE IN THE PERSON YOU ARE!!! BUT MOST OF ALL, I WISH YOU A LIFETIME FILLED WITH PEOPLE WHO CARE; AND PEOPLE WHO MEAN TO YOU AS YOU MEAN TO THEM!!!
MARYJAY, MANY TIMES WE ENCOUNTER NEW PEOPLE IN OUR LIVES, THEY COME AND GO WITH NO GREAT CONCERN; BUT THERE ARE A FEW WHO MAKE LASTING IMPRESSIONS ON OUR BEINGS, AND YOU, MS. MARYJAY, ARE ONE OF THOSE "*SPECIAL PEOPLE!*"!!! GOD IS WITH YOU!!!
MARYJAY, LIFE WITHOUT DREAMS WOULD BE LIKE LIFE WITHOUT AIR, BECAUSE DREAMS ARE THE ESSENCE OF LIFE!!! IN THE MEANING OF LIFE IS LEARNING HOW TO GIVE LOVE AND HOW TO RECEIVE LOVE!!! IN THE END, NONE OF OUR MANY ACCOMPLISHMENTS WILL MEAN AS MUCH AS THE LOVING MEMORIES THAT WE HAVE CREATED!!! I WISH YOU A LIFE OF BEAUTIFUL DREAMS!!!
MARYJAY, FROM MY HEART TO YOUR HEART, T AM WISHING YOU JOY; LAUGHTER; GOOD HEALTH; HAPPINESS; DREAMS, AND LOVE THAT WILL BRIGHTEN YOUR DAYS ALL YEAR THROUGH, AND WARM YOUR WORLD IN A BEAUTIFUL WAY!!! LIFE WILL GET BETTER FOR YOU!!!
NAMASTE!!!!!