marauder

This past week was insanely long, and it kind of includes today in some manners. I think I just need to go to sleep for a long time, ha.
Anyways, I've gotten even closer to one of my friends lately, we've been hanging out constantly. It's tons of fun but I feel like there is this insane amount of sexual tension, which wouldn't be a big deal if I wasn't in a committed relationship with someone I love. The crazy thing is, I don't want a relationship with my friend, I just want to seduce him and have sex. Which I guess is probably really fucking weird. I just feel like we have this insane energy, and it's like I bet the sex would be fucking amazing just because of this energy we have between us. And I know it's ridiculous and everything, and I don't cheat or anything obviously, and this probably isn't normal at all. It's just been on my mind and half of me wonders if anyone can even relate with me on this, or if everyone just thinks i'm as crazy as I feel. ugh. confusion. At least the world is pretty. Mmm, I think I'll meditate before bed tonight.
Peace, Love, and Empathy to all
<3
Marauder