so my grandmother has been back in the hospital since last friday i guess. my dad called and is trying to figure out when and how we can all get out to see her.
they think she will probably elect to stop getting chemo, which means when we go out there it will be to say goodbye since she won't live much longer after that.(in case you don't know my grandmother has lung and throat cancer, she is 75 years old though)
for some reason this isn't making me want to quit smoking, and it's not making me want to smoke more either. i'm not stressing myself out about her death, yet. i figure i'll deal with the emotional side of it when i'm there. i'm really freaked out about seeing her so close to death though. death scares me, a lot.
to get a flight out there we have to get stand-by flights from a family friend who works at an airline. it will be harder for me cause i live so far away. so i don't know when i am going exactly. it will probably be next week, and i'll have to take off work for like 5 days or more.
i probably won't be doing much for awhile socially. not because i'm sad, but i just don't want to deal with any of that right now. i want to just focus on work and getting through the next few weeks financially, and after i go out there, emotionally.
and don't worry about feeling bad for me, or my situation, i'll be okay, i just need to be alone most of the time now. and just trust me i'm not really sad, i just want to keep things as simple as possible.
they think she will probably elect to stop getting chemo, which means when we go out there it will be to say goodbye since she won't live much longer after that.(in case you don't know my grandmother has lung and throat cancer, she is 75 years old though)
for some reason this isn't making me want to quit smoking, and it's not making me want to smoke more either. i'm not stressing myself out about her death, yet. i figure i'll deal with the emotional side of it when i'm there. i'm really freaked out about seeing her so close to death though. death scares me, a lot.
to get a flight out there we have to get stand-by flights from a family friend who works at an airline. it will be harder for me cause i live so far away. so i don't know when i am going exactly. it will probably be next week, and i'll have to take off work for like 5 days or more.
i probably won't be doing much for awhile socially. not because i'm sad, but i just don't want to deal with any of that right now. i want to just focus on work and getting through the next few weeks financially, and after i go out there, emotionally.
and don't worry about feeling bad for me, or my situation, i'll be okay, i just need to be alone most of the time now. and just trust me i'm not really sad, i just want to keep things as simple as possible.
schiavona:
Hang tough sweetie. We're here for you if you need us.
lostjohny:
it seems as though you are keeeping a very level head about the situation, and don't want input from others untill you can figure it out for yourself. good for you. don't be a sheep and believe everything that you're told.