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i hate christmas.

it's not christmas in freakin north carolina. i hate being here.

my boyfriend is in connecticut and my mom is being a bitch to me.

i hate christmas.

Takin him to meet the parents this weekend. Starting to get nervous about it.

I'm not very seasoned in taking guys home. But I want them to love him like I do. Oh not like I do, lol. But you all know what I mean.

He's out with his friends tonight though. So I'm sleeping alone

We finally sang karaoke again last night, it was...
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It just gets better every day!

November 7th will be one year from when we started this whole thing. First time he kissed me

Course it's only been the past few months that we have fallen so crazy in love.

We fight over stupid shit, walk away, and two seconds later we're over it. We can't spend a night apart. By far the best relationship...
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i'm in love. spending time with my love. so sorry i haven't been around. i'm so happy with him.

Wow. It's been awhile.

I'm rarely home. I sometimes come home to sleep. But Josh is usually with me and I don't get on here when he's around. Idk why.

As of today, we are officially together. We fell in love awhile back. Tonight is the first night in I don't know how long we are not together. In fact, he'll be starting work with...
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So I'm jealous. Everyone's putting up pictures of their new ink. I can't even put gas in my car.

So I quit my job and went back to Ingles. Start back tomorrow actually. The money at Earth Fare was shit, and they wanted me to basically do a managers job for 9 an hour. Fuck that. Money is better at Ingles.

I've been drinking too...
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so it's whatev. I'm not gonna get hurt anytime soon.

we had sex in the car. the other night, we had sex ON the car, and then, when that became too difficult, we just threw down in the grass. employee parking lot at greenlife. was AWESOME!

last night, we stopped by northside, for the simple fact we wanted to have sex in the bathroom there....
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I'm not a freakin fan of my emotions and feelings right now. I seriously want them to go away. I can't have these feelings for this person. It will never work. As awesome as we are, it just could never work. I'm not even saying it's going that way. But I've been afraid of it for a bit, and my fears are coming true.

Damnit....
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