magusjoe

I'd love a home like this....

Management at the day job : "We have to be careful that we are serving the best interest for our investors, so we are going to redefine your job once again even when we have already done it 7 times within 14 months.

Me:

Ran myself into the dirt again between two jobs, taking care of the folks, and putting several people above my own well being.

I called in to the main job and actually got some real sleep... game changer which helped to limit a migraine that I had been fighting off and on for three days.

Watched some videos and listened to music to relax.

Even...
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Another year has passed... and it hasn't been too bad really. Getting stronger as a person, finding better ways for dealing with stress, and feeling like I can be a good person yet still have boundaries....

Hoping this next trip around the sun will be as successful.

.....but I still don't care much for birthdays.... lol

Looking back, I have broken free of some really bad habits.... pills, smoking, drinking, cutting off people that were users or abusive. I'd like to believe that I have improved and grown during these experience to get beyond.

Now I think I have plateaued and need to change... but no idea where to go next...

So... now what...

Maybe things are improving... or I am just changing... but starting to find more peace or understanding with people and situations in my life...

...and I am starting to think that I don't want to be alone... still trust issues galore... but it is a start.

Just watched the documentary and now I am falling over emotionally drained.... never realized how much care and intent went into the aspects of the show.

Nothing like knowing how much more you can do to better your world. Amazing...