magicinc

alright, so a blog huh? i hate these things...i share way too much in person, but never enough on line. im pretty hung up on someone who seems to not be hung up on me anymore....i miss her, she was the only woman i truly trusted and i think she fucked me over harder than any other woman ever. but she tells me that i need to focus on making myself happy....went to a show last night and met this cut little girl that was really easy to talk to, i been talking to this other girl for almost a month....as soon as my ex and i broke up i started talking to her, and then out of no where this girl i have had a thing for for about 6 years now laid the sweetest tiniest hello welcome home kiss on me...and i am supposed to be taking her out for coffee....but with all this craziness i have learned 2 hard and cruel facts of life. 1, i really can't be alone....you see, i like to sleep. i enjoy sleep. i can't sleep alone.....ever! don't know what it is, i just can't do it. and then there is number 2. number 2 states that it is real hard to go out and do what it is that makes you happy, when what it is that you want. what it is that would make you happy, is the one thing that you can't have. i guess, live and learn...appreaciate each day like its your last, if you wake tomorrow or not is unknown, but take for granted the life you live and the good things will go away. if you wake up or not, no one can know, but if you wake up not in the life you love, its your own fault!