Wow I don't know what to say, I am thinking somthing positive...?, but I know I kinda wouldn't want to here that when I feel as you do. I can attest to similar feelings even when surrounded by family. There are things that we can control and things that we let control us....not sure if that will make sense but I am shameful and regretfull almost every day to some degree, I shouldn't of ate that I shouldn't of drank this I shouldn't of said or did that....But thank fucking god everyday is a new start, new hope new try....sometimes its all we can do one step at a time. And I understand you might think I haven't a clue about Magentalab's world vs Jinn's world and I am full of shit. May be true but I hope this is some help.
One thing I have learned in this life is to never give up. Be wise in battle which means to know which fights to walk away from and which ones to stand your ground. Use what you have been through in a positive light.... there is such a thing, trust me. We all carry our own personal Hell inside and even though we cannot control everything that happens to us, we can learn to control how we react to it most of the time.
I see a lot of love from everyone here and it makes me smile.
One thing I have learned in this life is to never give up. Be wise in battle which means to know which fights to walk away from and which ones to stand your ground. Use what you have been through in a positive light.... there is such a thing, trust me. We all carry our own personal Hell inside and even though we cannot control everything that happens to us, we can learn to control how we react to it most of the time.
I see a lot of love from everyone here and it makes me smile.