magehand

I find it funny how they always say stress freaks people out yet stress tends to mellow me out. I get apathetic and more focused with the things that need to get done. In a way I almost have moments of Zen. Maybe I've been stressed out way too many times to care anymore. Maybe it's just my way of coping. Maybe I'm just fucked up. Regardless this gets me thinking.

So what brought this up? Well, I'm at the point of my life that most people I've talked to say is the scariest. I'm soon to begin my last semester of college (pass or fail, I'm not staying) and I'm trying to figure out what to do with my life. I've come to the conclusion that my grades will most likely prevent me from getting a job in my field (I'm one of those people that unless what I'm supposed to be learning is extremely interesting to me or particularly challenging I don't give a fuck about it which comes back to bite my ass with general courses) yet I don't feel much anxiety or depression over it. I'm already resolute on moving on. I guess that's it. Time to move on with my life. That sounds way too cliche.

Cye