maddy

ok so i wrote this once and my computer turned off for some unknown reason...

so i had a fucked up dream last night...

ok as i remember it, i was on death row for something i didn't do. no sure what it was but i was to die on a date in front of a large crowd along with some other people. i talked to my lawyer but she told me that she has done all she could and there was nothing more. sorry you are going to die. so that sucked. well i am riding on a bus to my impending doom and i pull out a bottle of valium and decide to take them and get it over with so i won't have to do it in front of everyone. i didn't do the crime so why should i pretend like i did in front of all these people. so i throw a few down my throat. i think one makes it and some get caught since i have nothing to drink and i spit them out on the floor. that wasn't a good idea i guessed. so we get to this church like place with cars lined up on the inside. they are out cars, kinda like chambers where we kill ourselves. and we had to kill ourselves...no lethal injection other than pills we put down our throats. on the way in i find the judge and plead and beg that i didn't do this crime and i don't want to do this in front of all these people. finally through the tears and begging he says ok we will postpone it to a date where you can be alone. i was so happy but realized that i was still supposed to die. i watched the other people one after the other take the pills and relax in their cars. and one by one they slowly died. i walked up and saw these lifeless bodies. so i found my lawyer and told her what had happened and she was surprised i wasn't dead. then somehow i figured out that she wanted me out of the way so she could have my boyfriend. i was pissed and i think i just walked away. so i knew i had to figure out a way to avoid my date of death. then somehow i had a shot gun...ok here is where the halo influence comes in. well i was trying to find my friend with this shot gun. its like we were playing a game. my shot gun had this kewl lcd screen where it helped me get better aim and it would show me where the other person was (i know this came from last nights arguments about screen watching during playing halo) well i found people and we shot either other and had fun. then it was kinda like a demented carnival surrounding. there was this biker-like gang and they had this stack of brown envelopes and one said something like "well we better get started if we are to get her out of this" maybe they were my new lawyers or something but i guess they were going to get my off death row. then someone came in and woke me up.

so i have no idea where the deathrow idea came from.

so tonight and tomorrow will be good...lots of food and family (which somehow is a good thing right now).

so glad to be off work...

merry fuckin christmas to everyone