mad_hatter_

Wow lots of stuff going on some good some questionable. The guy I really can't stand at work is quitting I only have to work with him three more times!! My Aunt is back from her trip but is not being uber bitchy so that falls in the questionable list. I found all this gay pride literature at work (I work in a library) I wish I had found stuff like this in high school, I realize that being Bi is not special or important to anyone, but it was hard figuring things out I always knew that boys were just as pretty as girls to me but I didn't know it was ok until I went to college and met the first guy I ever really had a crush on. My friends keep telling me that I am not normal and need to pick one or the other but I don't have a preference I think boys are hot and I think girls are hot I could be happy with either (except for the fact that men always lie). It's weird but these books are helping me be alright with who I am. It sucks too because to most straight people I am a fag but if I try to talk to a gay person I am just a pretender who doesn't matter. Except for R. he just was there for me while I had this huge crush that I was too afraid to tell him about (he knew anyway, some of our mutual friends noticed and told him because they didn't want me or him to get hurt). I guess I am just being whiny, sorry bout that. I hate that I can't just pick a team and play, because apparently it's wrong. Ugh will write later aain I guess.

Jay