It has been a whirlwind few months, hence the usual absence from updating. As usual I am looking for work, and terrified of not finding anything. I am hoping 2006 will yield something for me, I am not asking for a lot just a stable job for a while. As my father keeps telling me I just need to catch a break. I see them all around me, other people getting what they want, but this "break" seems to elude me. It is part of a larger bad luck thing in my life. If something with me can go wrong it will, yes many people will say that that is typical and that they share this phenomena, but in every case where something has happened it has always been the worst thing possible. People have indeed noticed this about me and it confuses them as well. Blah blah blah.... I am fasting at the moment, hoping that I can get myself feeling better, I have been eating some stuff that was not good for me. I hate fasting but it is a necessary evil to start things off. I must admit, not to sound all sorry for myself but I am growing weary of things, just one thing to hit that is all I ask.
tanja:
I'm sorry. I hope you get what you deserve. I used to feel very similarly, but then I challenged myself to pretend I attracted positive things. I know it sounds silly, but only then did my luck change for the better.