JOURNAL:
Look I know that my picture is pixilated... but I still like it. Much better and more recent than my DIRTY WHITE BITCH shot (the Britney shot as my ex calls it). I am happy with it.
SO...........
Friday night, I am going to have a Hefeweizen or two AT THE WATERFRONT (that is what it is called) down on the beach in Santa Monica right above the boardwalk near 5 DUDLEY (restaurant, so expensive that they do not give you a menu with a price but dictate it and the food is sooooooooooo good - as it should be). So if you would like to join me, all are welcome. I will post on friday what I am wearing and y'all can let me know.
I had 24 posts yesterday on my journal! Thank you all so very much! I just feel so special when there are so many people who care to read about my personal life. So thanks, it puts a smile on my face everytime a new post is on my page. Thank you!
The ex hunted me down last night and came over. We cuddled, kissed, and just held each other while we watched an episode of NIP/TUCK. It was wierd to watch because there is a woman on the show that is a cocaine addict and, to see her character struggle and look like shit.... from using, it really shocked me. I remember when things got really bad for me - I never looked like shit like that (not that I know of), especially out of the house anyway... but I remember having to wear more make up to look normal. To watch that was a reminder of not to touch that shit again, even if I think I have control... because that is the illusion - that you have control over the drug when, really, it has control over you................................./
Because I saw that, it reminded me that I was just as desperate to fill my weed perscription last night. Then, when I got the phone call from my guy, I told him I would call him later... and I did not. I am waiting for today at the soonest and, maybe if I can, I will put it off further. But who knows, I might crumble. But I also need to get my nails done (sounds stupid but I do that one thing for myself every two weeks, as my "maintainence" if you will and relax time) since it has been three weeks + and I am supposed to go every 2 minimum! I have not had a pedicure in over a month and a half either, and I do very little for myself... I have not gotten my hair done in 6 months,... and it is high time. So the nails will be done today. Definately. I have decided. And then I might pick up a dub later. But I have to make it last... I have no money unless I hunt down my father and have him give me the $200 he owes me still from when I was in high school. Now that I think about it.... not a bad idea.
As for the roomie, I got a ton of offers from guy friends (on the site too) to kick his ass and get the cash from him. I might send my ex after him because he is a king negotiator and he is also a double blackbelt, working on his third right now. I have seen him get out of fights more than I have seen him get into them, and I only saw him take a swing because he had no other choice - and he still brought down the guy to continue negotiations.... yeah. He is a pretty damn good guy. So that might happen. In fact, I might give him the green light today.
Made the telephone call, the ex now has my roomie's number and knows where he works. I told him if he gets $300 we can call it even. Works for me.
But the offers were sweet and I really appreciate it. It is nice to know that someone like me can have a defense of people who just like who I am and have never met me, but just want to stand up for people who are fucked by really shitty assholes. Yep, I try and help people out too.... so kismit and karma can work their magic.
The ex sounded sort of happy when I called him to go after my ex-roomie; he is going to do it gladly. I am just happy I do not have to deal with it - I hate confrontation where I have to not only have balls but the brawn to back it up, you know?
So corvette offered to pay me for a week's stay at my place in Venice with her buddies. Cool by me - and if she is reading - I got my hands on a full/possibly queen air mattress (thanks to my 420 buddy) and have plenty of pillows and blankets for y'all, even towels etc. So this way I can make some money back that I lost in not having a roommate and have some cool people come and visit. That will be nice, I think I am going to play "tour guide" too, which I love. I will have fun I hope while they are here... I already warned them I smoke a lot of weed. I hope they are okay with that! If not, I can improvise...
Anyway, so that is the beginning of my day. I have already been at work for an hour and a half and almost had a massive corinary... I hate running this company...I cannot wait for the 24th to come so my bosses can be back! I have 2 out of 3 employers out of town, and the one left is a newbie at this "running things" gig, so I am his right hand... and I am so tired. I was here til 6 pm last night, I have spent late nights. Luckily I am giving my two weeks so I will be gone by the 8th of August.
Scary how much my life is changing so quickly just with the decision to move home...
BTW - the ex and I were chilling last night and I made a comment regarding him driving an hour to come see me...
K:" We shall see what happens in 3 weeks when I leave, like you are going to drive all the way out there to see me.."
EX:"Of course! It is just an hour..."
K:"yeah right, I have heard that one... it is cool, I know that we will part ways when the time comes...:
EX:"How could you say that? You do not think I would come see you?"
K:"No. I do not expect you to."
EX:"There is no way I am letting you go now.."
K:"We shall see..."
EX:"Yes we will... :kisses her cheek:"
I guess we will see...
Post whatever you want, I will respond. I have a boring day of data entry, account updates, and to yell at about 15 people (just from the last 24 hours) who cannot do their fucking jobs right. If only they knew that I was a little 22 yr old blonde on the other end of the phone. I swear, the look of shock on client's faces when they meet me and see how young I am, it is priceless. Especially when I have bitched them out for business purposes. It feels good to have this much power... but I do not want it.
Just had deja vu while typing this..., as Keanu says, whoa.
So this will be my entertainment today, a break from the mundain. Keep me entertained.
"Are you NOT ENTERTAINED?!?!" - Maximus
My prince charming wrote that line in Gladiator... isn't he talented?
Mahalo lovers.
~the angel*
Look I know that my picture is pixilated... but I still like it. Much better and more recent than my DIRTY WHITE BITCH shot (the Britney shot as my ex calls it). I am happy with it.
SO...........
Friday night, I am going to have a Hefeweizen or two AT THE WATERFRONT (that is what it is called) down on the beach in Santa Monica right above the boardwalk near 5 DUDLEY (restaurant, so expensive that they do not give you a menu with a price but dictate it and the food is sooooooooooo good - as it should be). So if you would like to join me, all are welcome. I will post on friday what I am wearing and y'all can let me know.
I had 24 posts yesterday on my journal! Thank you all so very much! I just feel so special when there are so many people who care to read about my personal life. So thanks, it puts a smile on my face everytime a new post is on my page. Thank you!
The ex hunted me down last night and came over. We cuddled, kissed, and just held each other while we watched an episode of NIP/TUCK. It was wierd to watch because there is a woman on the show that is a cocaine addict and, to see her character struggle and look like shit.... from using, it really shocked me. I remember when things got really bad for me - I never looked like shit like that (not that I know of), especially out of the house anyway... but I remember having to wear more make up to look normal. To watch that was a reminder of not to touch that shit again, even if I think I have control... because that is the illusion - that you have control over the drug when, really, it has control over you................................./
Because I saw that, it reminded me that I was just as desperate to fill my weed perscription last night. Then, when I got the phone call from my guy, I told him I would call him later... and I did not. I am waiting for today at the soonest and, maybe if I can, I will put it off further. But who knows, I might crumble. But I also need to get my nails done (sounds stupid but I do that one thing for myself every two weeks, as my "maintainence" if you will and relax time) since it has been three weeks + and I am supposed to go every 2 minimum! I have not had a pedicure in over a month and a half either, and I do very little for myself... I have not gotten my hair done in 6 months,... and it is high time. So the nails will be done today. Definately. I have decided. And then I might pick up a dub later. But I have to make it last... I have no money unless I hunt down my father and have him give me the $200 he owes me still from when I was in high school. Now that I think about it.... not a bad idea.
As for the roomie, I got a ton of offers from guy friends (on the site too) to kick his ass and get the cash from him. I might send my ex after him because he is a king negotiator and he is also a double blackbelt, working on his third right now. I have seen him get out of fights more than I have seen him get into them, and I only saw him take a swing because he had no other choice - and he still brought down the guy to continue negotiations.... yeah. He is a pretty damn good guy. So that might happen. In fact, I might give him the green light today.
Made the telephone call, the ex now has my roomie's number and knows where he works. I told him if he gets $300 we can call it even. Works for me.
But the offers were sweet and I really appreciate it. It is nice to know that someone like me can have a defense of people who just like who I am and have never met me, but just want to stand up for people who are fucked by really shitty assholes. Yep, I try and help people out too.... so kismit and karma can work their magic.
The ex sounded sort of happy when I called him to go after my ex-roomie; he is going to do it gladly. I am just happy I do not have to deal with it - I hate confrontation where I have to not only have balls but the brawn to back it up, you know?
So corvette offered to pay me for a week's stay at my place in Venice with her buddies. Cool by me - and if she is reading - I got my hands on a full/possibly queen air mattress (thanks to my 420 buddy) and have plenty of pillows and blankets for y'all, even towels etc. So this way I can make some money back that I lost in not having a roommate and have some cool people come and visit. That will be nice, I think I am going to play "tour guide" too, which I love. I will have fun I hope while they are here... I already warned them I smoke a lot of weed. I hope they are okay with that! If not, I can improvise...
Anyway, so that is the beginning of my day. I have already been at work for an hour and a half and almost had a massive corinary... I hate running this company...I cannot wait for the 24th to come so my bosses can be back! I have 2 out of 3 employers out of town, and the one left is a newbie at this "running things" gig, so I am his right hand... and I am so tired. I was here til 6 pm last night, I have spent late nights. Luckily I am giving my two weeks so I will be gone by the 8th of August.
Scary how much my life is changing so quickly just with the decision to move home...
BTW - the ex and I were chilling last night and I made a comment regarding him driving an hour to come see me...
K:" We shall see what happens in 3 weeks when I leave, like you are going to drive all the way out there to see me.."
EX:"Of course! It is just an hour..."
K:"yeah right, I have heard that one... it is cool, I know that we will part ways when the time comes...:
EX:"How could you say that? You do not think I would come see you?"
K:"No. I do not expect you to."
EX:"There is no way I am letting you go now.."
K:"We shall see..."
EX:"Yes we will... :kisses her cheek:"
I guess we will see...
Post whatever you want, I will respond. I have a boring day of data entry, account updates, and to yell at about 15 people (just from the last 24 hours) who cannot do their fucking jobs right. If only they knew that I was a little 22 yr old blonde on the other end of the phone. I swear, the look of shock on client's faces when they meet me and see how young I am, it is priceless. Especially when I have bitched them out for business purposes. It feels good to have this much power... but I do not want it.
Just had deja vu while typing this..., as Keanu says, whoa.
So this will be my entertainment today, a break from the mundain. Keep me entertained.
"Are you NOT ENTERTAINED?!?!" - Maximus
My prince charming wrote that line in Gladiator... isn't he talented?
Mahalo lovers.
~the angel*
I'm still working on my bachelor's too, but I have to start scoping grad schools now, esp. since I want to do women's studies and native american studies...it's gonna take me the next two years to find schools with those kind of grad programs. I'm def. lookin at Irvine, though.