JOURNAL:
Hey! I am so proud. I have had my post up for 24 hours and got 21 comments! Yeah!
I am just trying to build a following. It makes me happy.Enough about that.
So I hung out at the Snake Pit with PLEASUREFOREVER last night. SO disappointed the people who could not make it, we had a few beers, had a few laughs, and all around had a great night. I was a poo poo head and had to turn in early, I had to run a company today (since my employers are out of town). Sorry dude, I am horrible.
I am even worse because there was an attempt to drag me to the Beauty Bar (which I love so it really was not dragging) but I had to decline, it was 11:40 and I turn into a pumpkin at midnight. Just kidding. But my dumb ass answered my telephone on my drive home and guess who it was? Prince Charming. So I went over to his place (it was on the way, sort of. Brentwood is on the way from The Grove to Venice, right?) and got my groove on. It was nice to fall asleep next to someone and wake up in his bed. He gets me tongue-tied though, and I basically need to keep my mouth shut there (since I am so comfortable, I tend to say what is on my mind - not good PLAYA!)
It is really nice to be handled again, and, as you can guess, my celebacy of three weeks is over. And we have a date on saturday night (which was arranged earlier this week) - so I am not going to drive out to Vegas for the weekend. I cannot afford it really anyway and I can always go another weekend, the guy lives there for fuck's sake - I know that I am a sucker a little bit for staying in town for a date, but I have warm fuzzies for this guy. And I am not sure how he feels about me, but I have to watch it: I do not want him thinking I am trying to nail him down but, honestly, I want to a little bit - I just want him devoted to me, as any guy should be. (I am a brat aren't I?
)
KEEP TELLING YOURSELF: BEING SINGLE IS GREAT RIGHT NOW... OKAY?
As all of you might be aware, I do not really speak to my parents. I talk to my MOM on the phone but she drives a truck for a living and lives in Apple Valley (aka Palmdale) which is hella far away from Venice. My father lives within about 4 city blocks from me but I have not seen him since I bought my Natalie (the car) in February (my 10 yr old sister lives there as well with the step-bitch and I have not seen her in 2 yrs on 7/13, her bday). He has not tried to call me or contact me, I called and told him literally just "Happy Birthday" on June 10th and then hung up with him. So needless to say, I am a little defensive about my interaction with my biological parental units... my point? I received a text from the ex yesterday. He texted me with "I heard your dad got his hair cut yesterday" (background: my dad still goes to the same barbar shop he has gone to since we came to Cali in '87. My ex goes there and has forever so they all know us). So I text back, "great, you know more than I do". He says back, "did not mean to break the ice by upsetting you". So we text back and forth, I am realizing he had not gotten the email I sent saturday morning, which means he a) texted me because he was thinking about it and/or b) he really does not know I am moving yet. So I told him to check it. We shall see what happens....
But why is he reaching out that way? Not only is it difficult for me on my phone (since it is new and I just am getting how to shortmail) but it is so impersonal, a way to make sure you cannot get in too much trouble - aka me get pissy - safely but it is so .... I do not know. I guess that was the only way he could clear his conscience that he was being the bigger man by initiating contact. Yeah, that is all I can figure out. But I do know that when I got it, I was very upset about it and had to take a time out in the car and all the way home before I dealt with it. And then the texting conversation went on for about 20 minutes, ten minutes too long for the standard conversation he is allowed (according to "The Rules", bhaw!)... but it was not on the phone so I guess an exception is made. I only wonder.., and I know the answer because he would not have contacted me if he was,... but if he read the site, would that not be interesting?
ENOUGH OF THAT SHIT FOR NOW.
So I am thinking of having another "free for all, come as you are" SG meeting thing, like at a bar where people can just hang out. I ordered some SG stuff (like stickers, a boy-beater, and some boy shorts) and plan to order that book... but yeah, so I might be showing that one off soon enough here when we have another gathering.
ARE ANY OF YOU LOCALS DOWN TO MEET UP AND BUY ME A DRINK? I am thinking next week, perhaps on a wednesday or thursday. There are a few options...
The Red Garter - (on Lincoln blvd btwn Washington & Venice) it was a happening 70s strip joint amd is now old school decor dive bar loved by locals in Venice. And my roomie works there, so we can tip him well.
The Brig - (on Abbot Kinney just north of Venice Blvd) it was a local biker bar where people got killed in the parking lot.. in the last 5 yrs or so it was bought by two gay guys and it is a little trendy swank local spot with a pool table and good martinis now (the "Brig lite" as we call it). A little spendy but a nice spot. Esp. on a Wednesday night.
James Beach - (at the end of N. Venice Blvd right on the beach, just west of Pacific) My favorite little lounge/bar with my little pool table and awesome hanging out area up a level above the bar in the back. Open air patio so smoking is readily accepted.. and I know some of you smoke occasionally like me... or more. Good wines available, definately ritzy crowd. Might not be SG material, but I love it.
Finn McCools' - (on Main Street btwn Ocean Park and Rose, across from the Gap) a trendy little irish pub, they have the best traditional dinners like Corned Beef and Cabbage, also can serve up a mean Hefeweizen on tap amongst many others. It is a nice chill spot, one of my favorites, and a chatting gathering is a lot more accepted there (not as crowded early).
So those are my suggestions. I need some people to:
a) tell me they are going to show and what night they are available and
b) where would they prefer or
c) any other suggestions since I am bias about the Westside?
that is it. I am debating on showing up at the ex's work today since I am still wearing what I wore last night and it looks good... just to say hi and stuff. I know it is a bad idea, I just need other people to tell me that I am right.
But I want to see him and inflict more pain apparently. I know I am not ready, but what if there are other things hanging in the balance like if he wants to see me...? Looking at it that way, I have to resist and say "tough titties"... but I really miss him.
Lesson #25 - Never underestimate the power of a man to underestimate the power of a woman.
God, am I glad I am not a vengeful soul. Can you imagine the damages a woman as brokenhearted as I was can do? They say it for a reason, and I agree based on my past experience...
"Hell hath no fury like a woman scorned".
Ain't that the mutha fuckin' truth?!?!
Mahalo lovers,
~the angel*
Hey! I am so proud. I have had my post up for 24 hours and got 21 comments! Yeah!
I am just trying to build a following. It makes me happy.Enough about that.
So I hung out at the Snake Pit with PLEASUREFOREVER last night. SO disappointed the people who could not make it, we had a few beers, had a few laughs, and all around had a great night. I was a poo poo head and had to turn in early, I had to run a company today (since my employers are out of town). Sorry dude, I am horrible.
I am even worse because there was an attempt to drag me to the Beauty Bar (which I love so it really was not dragging) but I had to decline, it was 11:40 and I turn into a pumpkin at midnight. Just kidding. But my dumb ass answered my telephone on my drive home and guess who it was? Prince Charming. So I went over to his place (it was on the way, sort of. Brentwood is on the way from The Grove to Venice, right?) and got my groove on. It was nice to fall asleep next to someone and wake up in his bed. He gets me tongue-tied though, and I basically need to keep my mouth shut there (since I am so comfortable, I tend to say what is on my mind - not good PLAYA!)
It is really nice to be handled again, and, as you can guess, my celebacy of three weeks is over. And we have a date on saturday night (which was arranged earlier this week) - so I am not going to drive out to Vegas for the weekend. I cannot afford it really anyway and I can always go another weekend, the guy lives there for fuck's sake - I know that I am a sucker a little bit for staying in town for a date, but I have warm fuzzies for this guy. And I am not sure how he feels about me, but I have to watch it: I do not want him thinking I am trying to nail him down but, honestly, I want to a little bit - I just want him devoted to me, as any guy should be. (I am a brat aren't I?
)
KEEP TELLING YOURSELF: BEING SINGLE IS GREAT RIGHT NOW... OKAY?
As all of you might be aware, I do not really speak to my parents. I talk to my MOM on the phone but she drives a truck for a living and lives in Apple Valley (aka Palmdale) which is hella far away from Venice. My father lives within about 4 city blocks from me but I have not seen him since I bought my Natalie (the car) in February (my 10 yr old sister lives there as well with the step-bitch and I have not seen her in 2 yrs on 7/13, her bday). He has not tried to call me or contact me, I called and told him literally just "Happy Birthday" on June 10th and then hung up with him. So needless to say, I am a little defensive about my interaction with my biological parental units... my point? I received a text from the ex yesterday. He texted me with "I heard your dad got his hair cut yesterday" (background: my dad still goes to the same barbar shop he has gone to since we came to Cali in '87. My ex goes there and has forever so they all know us). So I text back, "great, you know more than I do". He says back, "did not mean to break the ice by upsetting you". So we text back and forth, I am realizing he had not gotten the email I sent saturday morning, which means he a) texted me because he was thinking about it and/or b) he really does not know I am moving yet. So I told him to check it. We shall see what happens....
But why is he reaching out that way? Not only is it difficult for me on my phone (since it is new and I just am getting how to shortmail) but it is so impersonal, a way to make sure you cannot get in too much trouble - aka me get pissy - safely but it is so .... I do not know. I guess that was the only way he could clear his conscience that he was being the bigger man by initiating contact. Yeah, that is all I can figure out. But I do know that when I got it, I was very upset about it and had to take a time out in the car and all the way home before I dealt with it. And then the texting conversation went on for about 20 minutes, ten minutes too long for the standard conversation he is allowed (according to "The Rules", bhaw!)... but it was not on the phone so I guess an exception is made. I only wonder.., and I know the answer because he would not have contacted me if he was,... but if he read the site, would that not be interesting?
ENOUGH OF THAT SHIT FOR NOW.
So I am thinking of having another "free for all, come as you are" SG meeting thing, like at a bar where people can just hang out. I ordered some SG stuff (like stickers, a boy-beater, and some boy shorts) and plan to order that book... but yeah, so I might be showing that one off soon enough here when we have another gathering.
ARE ANY OF YOU LOCALS DOWN TO MEET UP AND BUY ME A DRINK? I am thinking next week, perhaps on a wednesday or thursday. There are a few options...
The Red Garter - (on Lincoln blvd btwn Washington & Venice) it was a happening 70s strip joint amd is now old school decor dive bar loved by locals in Venice. And my roomie works there, so we can tip him well.
The Brig - (on Abbot Kinney just north of Venice Blvd) it was a local biker bar where people got killed in the parking lot.. in the last 5 yrs or so it was bought by two gay guys and it is a little trendy swank local spot with a pool table and good martinis now (the "Brig lite" as we call it). A little spendy but a nice spot. Esp. on a Wednesday night.
James Beach - (at the end of N. Venice Blvd right on the beach, just west of Pacific) My favorite little lounge/bar with my little pool table and awesome hanging out area up a level above the bar in the back. Open air patio so smoking is readily accepted.. and I know some of you smoke occasionally like me... or more.
Good wines available, definately ritzy crowd. Might not be SG material, but I love it.
Finn McCools' - (on Main Street btwn Ocean Park and Rose, across from the Gap) a trendy little irish pub, they have the best traditional dinners like Corned Beef and Cabbage, also can serve up a mean Hefeweizen on tap amongst many others. It is a nice chill spot, one of my favorites, and a chatting gathering is a lot more accepted there (not as crowded early).
So those are my suggestions. I need some people to:
a) tell me they are going to show and what night they are available and
b) where would they prefer or
c) any other suggestions since I am bias about the Westside?
that is it. I am debating on showing up at the ex's work today since I am still wearing what I wore last night and it looks good... just to say hi and stuff. I know it is a bad idea, I just need other people to tell me that I am right.
But I want to see him and inflict more pain apparently. I know I am not ready, but what if there are other things hanging in the balance like if he wants to see me...? Looking at it that way, I have to resist and say "tough titties"... but I really miss him.
Lesson #25 - Never underestimate the power of a man to underestimate the power of a woman.
God, am I glad I am not a vengeful soul. Can you imagine the damages a woman as brokenhearted as I was can do? They say it for a reason, and I agree based on my past experience...
"Hell hath no fury like a woman scorned".
Ain't that the mutha fuckin' truth?!?!
Mahalo lovers,
~the angel*
morbidangel:
Wow... You're the BEST! I'm so in love with you! 