JOURNAL ENTRY:
Just got off the phone with my now ex boy. It is very odd to speak with someone so casually with all the turmoil that lies beneath the still waters. I am completely confused with our relationship now. It is so undefined it is ridiculous. It is basically touch and go - we make our efforts of communication and feel it out through the phone call or physical encounter.
At least the sex is still good.
Actually, it's incredible. And I appreciate it.
But all good things must end at some point to make room for the new evolution. Where our "friendship" will take us now remains to be seen. I actually have been enjoying the temultuous (I cant spell) ride that has been the last two weeks.... we broke up on March 1st... I think we are growing and exploring more now than before because we are CHOOSING each other not out of obligation but out of CHOICE on a case by case basis. Plain and simple. Besides, I won over a threesome with two other chicks sunday morning. They were both a little anebriated (mmm... not telling) and a little scanky but they are friends so I still love them. All I know is I still won, and two chicks like that are difficult to beat. Plain and simple.
It doesn't help that I still love the bastard. Yes, you heard it, I love him. But we can love a number of people in a number of ways... that philosophy you will see carry through all of my opinions of life.
Oh well, I do what I please, and now I can do whomever I feel inclined if the invite is so worthy of my attentions.
I am a stuck up bitch who knows what she wants and how to get it, that is Lesson #1 class.
Back to work for me! That is my 15 minutes.
Class Dismissed.
~ the angel*
Just got off the phone with my now ex boy. It is very odd to speak with someone so casually with all the turmoil that lies beneath the still waters. I am completely confused with our relationship now. It is so undefined it is ridiculous. It is basically touch and go - we make our efforts of communication and feel it out through the phone call or physical encounter.
At least the sex is still good.
Actually, it's incredible. And I appreciate it.
But all good things must end at some point to make room for the new evolution. Where our "friendship" will take us now remains to be seen. I actually have been enjoying the temultuous (I cant spell) ride that has been the last two weeks.... we broke up on March 1st... I think we are growing and exploring more now than before because we are CHOOSING each other not out of obligation but out of CHOICE on a case by case basis. Plain and simple. Besides, I won over a threesome with two other chicks sunday morning. They were both a little anebriated (mmm... not telling) and a little scanky but they are friends so I still love them. All I know is I still won, and two chicks like that are difficult to beat. Plain and simple.
It doesn't help that I still love the bastard. Yes, you heard it, I love him. But we can love a number of people in a number of ways... that philosophy you will see carry through all of my opinions of life.
Oh well, I do what I please, and now I can do whomever I feel inclined if the invite is so worthy of my attentions.
I am a stuck up bitch who knows what she wants and how to get it, that is Lesson #1 class.
Back to work for me! That is my 15 minutes.
Class Dismissed.
~ the angel*
sounds like its been quite a month for ya, hope things calm down a bit, or at least pick up in a good way, or something.
at any rate, i'm sure i'll see ya around again one of these days, later!
theendlesswinter