lysie

how could i be so fuking dumb..
i asked him his name
he gave me a fake one and said 'maybe one day we will share the same surname'

i told him the baby photos hanging on the wall were cute
he said 'yeh i was a cute baby wasnt i'

i stalked his myspace
he has a lovely collection of photographs and family portraits of his wife and kids

how could i be so fuking dumb to actualy fall for a stranger that i had never even met..
how could i be so fuking dumb to think an 'online relationship' would work..
he was just so perfect on webcam and on the phone...
even if he was a million miles away...

maybe i didnt love him
maybe i just loved listening to angels and airwaves.