lylee

ladies and gentlemen

boys and girls

other people as well...



todays the day


i feel like i'm officially single
yes its been like that for a while, but i've always felt we had a connection



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holy shit this sucks


nevermind eh

everything happens for a reason

(this is me pretending i dont care)

and to top it off its late at night, and it started raining. i love that sound. so i got up and went on the computer. thankfully the one person i want to talk to is on. Her name is Jodi. Shes one of my best frieds back home.

I guess i've realised it's time to get on with my life.I dont want to.I guess i thought my prince would come back to save me. But clearly he's not.hes always mad at me. I've probably done something to provoke it but still.i honestly thought he was my one. clearly he doesnt

here's a prime example as to why i love my jodi..



odi says:
are you guys still seeing each other or still hanging out?

Kim says:
no

Kim says:
we used to hang out tuesdays, thursdays and weekends. well he cancelled last tuesday, and today. and i dunno if im going to see him at the weekend. he doesnt love me anymore jodi and im so so heartbroken i hate this

Jodi says:
i am sorry hun

Jodi says:
but sometimes it's just not meant to be so y ou are going to come home and meet mr right

Kim says:
i dont want to meet mister right. i dont want to be in a realtionship anymore. i just want to see you


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I'm sorry for being all emo.I just dont think anyone understands how much i cared about him. I would try and go on right now to describe it but i can't. no matter what ammount of words I used nothing could compare to my feelings.

I hate this change. I hate how things change so fast. I can honestly say I feel like I have no one here to care about me.Before i used to have someone who would do anything for me and take care of me. Well that's gone.

I'm also scared shitless about having to go to the doctors next week to get blood tests. I want someone to go with me to hold my hand. I feel so alone. im also thinking how hard it is going to be without him at certain times.But i gues thats the way it has to be

Im really sorry for this.I just have no one I can talk to.I mean I do.But i dont want to bored any of my friends with this stuff so i just talk to myself on here.its easier. i dont know anyone from here (except sonja) I guess i find it easier talking on here because im venting..

im also sorry that I've been so down lately.i've just lost someone important in my life.

crap i need to sort myself out. i want my mom...