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this is crazzzy. sort of that tripped out feelin..

i started writing my third new song in the last three weeks. and i wish i could say they're just repeats of the same..but they're not. its really strange...really strange, to have something come from you, and not know how, or why or where its coming from.....it just comes.. and i go with it...because there's nothing...
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socogentleman:
Wow, that has to be the deepest thing I've ever read that was written that early in the morning. And yes, I do know that feeling and it's freaky in a good way.
yuriel:
deep indeed. smile
hmm nice.
*shrugs*
i need to....... think... or maybe think less.
heh
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Dreams..
i'll prolly have alot of dream journals. i find it horribly interesting..

So as of late, this is the recurring dream...

Yelling..Arguing..Yelling, and being yelled at.. it seems very violent-like, or at least distrubing..when i awake, i feel disheveled. different people, different situations..but all with the one element standing out, a frightening experience..

i tried to do some searching, but there's not alot on...
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yuriel:
dreams are a letdown....
lucid nonsensical ones or lucid nightmares just plain damned suck wink
whee
yay for yer new song biggrin
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redmess:
oh, i hate those. anyones where there is conflict with people pretty much ruin my entire day...on a much happier note, i'm obsessed with flowers, too! i have fake flowers all over my room and i always wear them in my hair.
smile it's ridiculous how much excitement i get out of seeing a flower.
come springtime we will have to go the zilker botanical gardens and the wildflower center.
do you use your dreams as fuel for your songs?

skull miao!! skull
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yowza. shocked wink kiss
xoxo
BEST set -- Apnea - Bee 6am.
started writing a couple new songs these last few weeks.. love

and now i have a lil' bit better way to record them..
just have to finish them in finality now..

not that i really have anything to do with them after that. l.o.love

i've given up my crush in NJ. i still miss him thou..i think...
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yuriel:
yowza indeeed smile
oooh youre hot... AND a songwriter?!!?
holy hell. :o eeek
best luck with the songs!
poor guy he doesnt know what hes missing out on! wink
you can crush on me if its any consolation? tongue
haha
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redmess:
apnea blows my fucking mind everyday...her appearance is truly like nothing else...ah.
new songs? awesome, you are so talented. and no, i'm not just saying that because i've seen your bare breasts. hah! tongue
skull miao!! skull
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everyone should look at today's set india..she really is amazing... smile kiss miao!!
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cellobas:
i concour.....
socogentleman:
i agree as well. i loved that one pic that had the sun playing with the camera. it had a yellowish tint/film to the pic. i think it's my background now. it just reminded me of this photo i took back in high school that was on the front page of the school's paper. *sigh* i miss photography.
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i dunno if anyone's with me...but as beautiful as a woman can be...
when she turns into a total bitch, its fuckin disgusting.

i was looking at the SG luxe. fucking hot yes. but after reading her last journal entry, its all very clear..

she's just a prissy bitch.

it seems like you should at least show some gratitude for getting accepted, the experience, etc....
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xip:
Wow, I went to see what you were talking about, thinking she may be disenfranchised with the site or have some kind of beef with the administration... but no, she was just being uppity and all "I'm too good for this place now". And to call SuicideGirls "geeky shit"? I have no idea what she was doing on this site in the first place, if she has that kind of attitude.
-xip
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something tells me, espresso&milk just isnt a good idea at 10pm..
then again, i was never one for good ideas confused

muse - morphine - you look like rain (on repeat)
you're mine
and you're experience call to me
you have lived
and your intelligence is sexxy
i wanna know what you've got to say
i wanna know what you've got to say
i wanna know...
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mct:
Thanks for the add smile Muse rocks - Hysteria is by far my fave track though. Hope all is going well. I still haven't figured out how to add pics to my journal frown
redmess:
wow, that second picture is really hot!!!
muse makes me ache -but in such a good way.
right now, in my head i'm playing "dying thoughts of an atheist"

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won't you be my lust
wont you be my potion #9
its my fancy, to feel down like this
catharsis is my first love
first attempt
second persuasion

third starts to feel
like
invasion

vasoline

the stereo on repeat
the beat, thump de dump
of havoc under the sheets

covered in duvet
in my hoodie and my pretty little panties
being down
just isnt condusive...
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redmess:
i've worked in retaurants/bars for four years but not in austin. depending on where you work the money kicks fucking ass! i was bussing tables at a fairly nice restaurant in fredericksburg and averaging about $10-12 an hour with tips. with waiting tables you make more though. personally, i love serving people and being friendly, out-going, etc, and if you do too than you will probably like it. the pace is usually very fast and the environment is extremely stressful. plus there's usually a lot of drama going on between waitresses, hostesses, bussers, cooks, managers...but it's fun to watch them go at each other. if you have a cool head -and you seem like the type that rolls w/ the punches- then you should totally go for it.
jesus, i didn't mean to write a fucking novel... tongue
good luck!
skull miao!! skull
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miao!! Fuck - - Love miao!!
xanippi:
supernal:
Just seen your photoset in the hopefulls group. some very sexy pics! love
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fuck love. . . . . .

fuck me baby.

i could use a good hard fuck

Now.

push me, pull me,

let me be your sugar

let me be your pet

desperation is never pretty

fingers please.
on my knees?

sex is a violation
of my sanity.

i'll run from you baby
if that's what you please.

i'm runnin' in circles
iv'e got...
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xanippi:
weeeeeeelll...... ok come here tongue

i'll let you be the woman... i mean.. blush
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i'm sad frown frown frown

there's this boy..

we've been talking a year, come may

1500 miles away

he's scared to meet..

scared for things to go wrong

more scared for them to go right.

i think he thinks he needs to give me more than just..

i just wanna meet him

i said to him
"to sum it up.. i guess i would say..
my love is...
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