luridsky

I swear to christ I'm one big never ending fit of drama! My room mate has stopped talking to me because I lied to her about where I was last night. I know it was stupid and I shouldn't have lied. I just know how she would have reacted if I were to say where I was.

This sucks because she's the type of person to hold grudges and while I've apoligized about 30 times she is still ignoring me. I'm so angry I'm shaking uncontrolably! I'm not angry at her(well I do think she is over reacting a bit) I'm angry at myself for lying to her.

I've always tried to be a very honest and straight forward person and I usually am with people but I also think that I've always felt as though I had to lie to protect myself, I suppose it stems from not ever being able to go to my mother for anything while I was growing up (I'd get in trouble for wearing the wrong socks) , so now I lie about the dumbest shit, like where I was and who I was with. It shouldn't even matter who I was with, it was my choice to go out, I'm almost 20 fucking years old and I feel as though I'm being babysat all the time. I'm starting to feel like I'm not allowed to do anything with out first confronting shauna(my room mate). If I could I would move out but I have no place else to live.

The next few days should be interesting...