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Happy birthday, my little angel. We miss you so much. Three is supposed to be such a big age, nearing the end of toddlerdom and making that switch over to "kid". Right before you had to leave us I was so amazed because though you had been saying I love you for a long time, you had just recently really learned what it meant. Without you here on this Earth it's tough for me to remember what it means, but I try babydoll. It just hurts so much that I forget sometimes. You knew nothing but love, nothing but life and laughter. I wish I could forgive myself as I am sure you have forgiven me. You always forgave, no matter how upset or unhappy you could get. You always came back with a smile and a hug, ready to take off on your next big adventure, pullling us along wiith smiles and hugs of our own. Now the smiles are forced, and the hugs are to hold each other up. It's all we can do anymore.

We miss you so much Lillian. June 19th will never be the same again.