So,
Ive just talked to my sister. Shes back at her place, (we're actually going to see each other soon) , she is five months in and she wants to keep it. Her boyfriend is still with her, and is, from what I hear, extremely supportive of her. His family wants to help her and pay for the baby shower and everything as well...
I guess she knows what shes doing, and deep down in my mind I am both excited for her, now that I know the details, and am excited to move on with my life. I'm moving downtown next month, starting out completely fresh, and I have endless possibilities to get to where I want to be in life.
My roommate and I have had another talk and I think with every fight out of the way we both learn from it and are able to become stronger friends and people. At one point I thought he was ready to drop me as a friend, and I was ready to do the same as the result of that, but now I can't imagine doing that to him. I guess we really are 'siblings'...
Life is a bitch, but Time is the greatest mentor, and as long as you use your rational where needed, and follow your heart the rest of the time, life and its rewards will always be at your feet. Man... I feel so emotional right now... there's an overflow of it coming from so many different people, and I can't just ignore this stuff... I can usually detach myself from stuff like this, but there's been a lot of stuff happening to a lot of really close people... I could cry, with happiness, because all my fear of the unknown is slowly being replaced with strong optimism and hope for the future.
It's always a bit unclear, and there are always things that suddenly happen but with honesty, integrity, and an open mind, I know everything will work its self out beautifully.
Feelings are what they are... no matter how much you want to mask them, or manipulate/ distort them, they will eventually show themselves in the end. I have never felt such a strong pull towards anyone, and I know I can't hide it!! This seems so silly right now because of the distance, but I honestly feel in my heart that I can trust this situation, this person.! In the past shit has happened... as it will and does to everyone, but I am so motivated to see that I've learned from the past, and am intelligent enough to pursue what some would call unrealistic goals. What can I say? I know I'm worth what I put in, so why not aim past the sky and see where I land?
*sigh*
What a bout of relief!
Ive just talked to my sister. Shes back at her place, (we're actually going to see each other soon) , she is five months in and she wants to keep it. Her boyfriend is still with her, and is, from what I hear, extremely supportive of her. His family wants to help her and pay for the baby shower and everything as well...
I guess she knows what shes doing, and deep down in my mind I am both excited for her, now that I know the details, and am excited to move on with my life. I'm moving downtown next month, starting out completely fresh, and I have endless possibilities to get to where I want to be in life.
My roommate and I have had another talk and I think with every fight out of the way we both learn from it and are able to become stronger friends and people. At one point I thought he was ready to drop me as a friend, and I was ready to do the same as the result of that, but now I can't imagine doing that to him. I guess we really are 'siblings'...
Life is a bitch, but Time is the greatest mentor, and as long as you use your rational where needed, and follow your heart the rest of the time, life and its rewards will always be at your feet. Man... I feel so emotional right now... there's an overflow of it coming from so many different people, and I can't just ignore this stuff... I can usually detach myself from stuff like this, but there's been a lot of stuff happening to a lot of really close people... I could cry, with happiness, because all my fear of the unknown is slowly being replaced with strong optimism and hope for the future.
It's always a bit unclear, and there are always things that suddenly happen but with honesty, integrity, and an open mind, I know everything will work its self out beautifully.
Feelings are what they are... no matter how much you want to mask them, or manipulate/ distort them, they will eventually show themselves in the end. I have never felt such a strong pull towards anyone, and I know I can't hide it!! This seems so silly right now because of the distance, but I honestly feel in my heart that I can trust this situation, this person.! In the past shit has happened... as it will and does to everyone, but I am so motivated to see that I've learned from the past, and am intelligent enough to pursue what some would call unrealistic goals. What can I say? I know I'm worth what I put in, so why not aim past the sky and see where I land?
*sigh*
What a bout of relief!
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