Hey everyone!
I want to make this post to really talk to everyone, and tell you a little about myself, and my issues -
Ultimately I grew up with a family that loved me, at the same time this family could be very mentally abusive at times not the best at communicating properly . For the most part though, it was pretty loving. I have three older sisters, no brothers, and parents that stay married through most of my childhood existence.
I wont go into crazy detail but I did have something bad happen to me at a very young age and said thing continued for a few years, unbeknownst to my parents. Well around teenage-hood my parents found out about said thing, and it led to their separation about a year or so later. They didn't see eye to eye on the situation, I didn't want to tell anyone and my mom agreed that was my choice (i mean it had been a secret for about ten years and I had just informed them), and my dad wanted to tell everyone and get it out in the open.
I was already going through a lot, and I wound up having to get therapy . I was diagnosed with bipolar disorder, depression, and anxiety. I had been medicated a couple different times over the years only for a short while. As a teen I don't remember what pills I took, as an adult I remember the antidepressant was escitolopram (lexipro) but I don't recall the others. I didn't really like the way the prescription affected me so i stopped taking it...
The depression had been really bad for the past few years and I found it difficult to do anything but work and come home and do nothing-- i felt down all the time and my anxiety was screaming at me to do the stuff but I couldnt. I felt bad for constantly letting my followers, and friends, down.... I know yall are waiting on the post, or the live, or the videos- and yet all I wanted to do was lay there. I would just stare at the wall, or scroll on my phone, sometimes I would just sleep.
I was working at this BS job with a boss that was embezzling and nothing was being done about it- the work environment had become hostile and toxic. I tried showing up everyday but would cry in my car on the way to and from this place... I finally quit in November, shortly after Thanksgiving. I had some in savings and thought finding a job would be pretty quick, because usually it had been for me. This time though... it took a bit... so right before Christmas this company reached out to me, said they wanted to interview me but with it being so close to the holidays they would reach back out again in January to schedule interviews.
So beginning of Jan they reached out and did 3 interviews with me.
The owner of the company called me and told me I got the job.
To say i was on the moon with excitement would be an understatement lol I was absolutely floored.
So I got some hire on paperwork, per usual, and some other paperwork I need to read and learn.
I walked in on that first day to see a bunch of well put together men in business suits and all professional, and they have HUGE smiles on their faces , they start coming up to me shaking my hand and introducing themselves. They all have such high energy and focus on the positive and controllables.
Needless to say, this company and business has had such a huge impact on my life and I've felt so much more positive and better these past couple months-- I haven't posted only because I just really haven't had time!
Since starting early January, i have been promoted already , taken a couple interviews, and grown so much in my personal and professional life. I'm so grateful for these changes in my life and it's on me to keep the momentum and not let myself fall into old patterns. Thank you to everyone for sticking around and liking my content! More to come ❤️
-Lucki
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