insomnia...again. how annoying. so very annoying. i look to the aqua teens for solace. soothe me, master shake. okay, i'm delirious. i was playing with my cell phone earlier, spinning it around on my finger with the carabiner. that rhymed. it flew off my finger & hit me in the head. i think it might leave a mark. it hit me pretty hard...hard enough that...
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turbulence:
I'm better - found a real life pic!!!
bairdduvessa:
are webcam girls unethical?
yep it's 2:54am and i can't sleep. work, elavil, damn you, work...but anyway, yeah, i am bored & there is nothing good in my DVR list. so fuck. i have nothing interesting to blog about right now...well, gabriel got my name tattooed on his back last night, so i guess that is semi-interesting. he also got katana & kagome's names. how...
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yep it's 2:54am and i can't sleep. work, elavil, damn you, work...but anyway, yeah, i am bored & there is nothing good in my DVR list. so fuck. i have nothing interesting to blog about right now...well, gabriel got my name tattooed on his back last night, so i guess that is semi-interesting. he also got katana & kagome's names. how...
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turbulence:
Good luck with your job interview!!!
The webcam thing is very temporary. They want young girls. And on the other side your girls will get older and will find out and/or other people will. You could say fuck them, but it's not that easy...
However this job won't count for any job experience / education so it's wasted time, or do you want a minimum wage job in a few years. I bet not.
As I said good luck for the real job interview
PS: Let's not argue about ethical here ... a job is invested time and this time investment has no long term prospects, and no health insurance etc.
The webcam thing is very temporary. They want young girls. And on the other side your girls will get older and will find out and/or other people will. You could say fuck them, but it's not that easy...
However this job won't count for any job experience / education so it's wasted time, or do you want a minimum wage job in a few years. I bet not.
As I said good luck for the real job interview
PS: Let's not argue about ethical here ... a job is invested time and this time investment has no long term prospects, and no health insurance etc.
thefreak:
I have no opinion one way or the other. But is it hurting anyone? No.
-TM
-TM
i've been in a pretty shitty mood today ever since i woke up. i guess it didn't help that i woke up to a phone call which was immediately followed by discovering that in the night kagome had taken off her own diaper in the playpen. said diaper was full of shit, i might add, which was all over kagome & the playpen. so, after...
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bairdduvessa:
good luck! i hope things get better
thefreak:
-TM
-TM
last night was fun for a while & then it sucked. i had fun hanging out with a few of my friends, but by the time i headed home i had a terrible headache. by the time i got home, my headache had spread to my tummy, probably a migraine. i wanted to try to sleep, but gabriel called. his friend kept saying mean things...
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polarbear:
Damn dude.I'm really sorry to hear that things are going badly for you lately.Hope they get better soon. 
thefreak:
-TM
-TM
bairdduvessa:
Staring down the hole again.
Hands are on my back again.
Survival is my only friend.
Terrified of what may come.-tool
Hands are on my back again.
Survival is my only friend.
Terrified of what may come.-tool
turbulence:
i'm glad you feel better. this will go up and down. but up in the end...
a heart can be fixed and put back in:
*hug*
a heart can be fixed and put back in:
*hug*
does life go on?
this whole week has sucked. today really sucks. i spent $60 on a dr. visit & all my dr. did was look in my ear & write me a few scripts. then i spent $100 on 4 scripts (adderall, elavil, heart med, cough syrup). i have been feeling suicidal, desperate, empty, & lonely for months...maybe years. i need something new in...
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this whole week has sucked. today really sucks. i spent $60 on a dr. visit & all my dr. did was look in my ear & write me a few scripts. then i spent $100 on 4 scripts (adderall, elavil, heart med, cough syrup). i have been feeling suicidal, desperate, empty, & lonely for months...maybe years. i need something new in...
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bairdduvessa:
i wish i could help
turbulence:
New things are on their way just look over the the edge...
*imagine a real hug*
*imagine a real hug*
well, i fought it all day yesterday...i even made it worse last night when i kept going...and now, i feel...like shit. yes, the come-down from adderall is never pleasant, but today it is really bad. it's not even so much the physical discomfort from lack of sleep this time either. i am genuinely depressed (in a sobbing uncontrollaby at times kind of way) that i...
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turbulence:
Don't 2nd guess. You've never been saner with your arguments than yesterday ...
I *need* you happy! Please.
I *need* you happy! Please.
schiavona:
Maybe you didn't make a wrong decision. Just because you aren't moving right now doesn't mean you won't be able to in the future. You will, just you see.
My Life Story Soundtrack:
Opening Credits: Type O Negative - Black No. 1
My Birth/Song to Mama: Boyz II Men - A Song for Momma
My Childhood: Ludacris - Growing Pains
Hanging with Cousin Nikki: Guns N' Roses - Paradise City
Loss of Virginity to Rape: Red Hot Chili Peppers - Lonely View
Summer Camp: Garth Brooks - The River, The Monkees - I'm a...
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Opening Credits: Type O Negative - Black No. 1
My Birth/Song to Mama: Boyz II Men - A Song for Momma
My Childhood: Ludacris - Growing Pains
Hanging with Cousin Nikki: Guns N' Roses - Paradise City
Loss of Virginity to Rape: Red Hot Chili Peppers - Lonely View
Summer Camp: Garth Brooks - The River, The Monkees - I'm a...
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turbulence:
No closing credits for now
Love that pic!
Love that pic!
today was weird. i woke up on the wrong side of the bed...after doing a lot of research last night, followed by a lot of bad dreams. i read a lot about different mental disorders & a lot seemed to fit me & that scares me. i know i need to see a shrink, but i don't know when i'll be able to afford it....
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bairdduvessa:
the problem with researching symptoms is that you will diagnose yourself. that's one of the first things taught to psych students.
i wish you luck
i wish you luck
i had a good cinco de mayo. i spent the evening with friends & then with gabe. it was lovely. i also took lots of pics between 5 & 8am...will post later.
i forgot to mention yesterday that i planted a flower garden on the 4th. yay me. i finally did that shit! i planted marigolds (orange, yellow, red), pansies (pink), roses (red, yellow), wildflowers...
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i forgot to mention yesterday that i planted a flower garden on the 4th. yay me. i finally did that shit! i planted marigolds (orange, yellow, red), pansies (pink), roses (red, yellow), wildflowers...
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thefreak:
Oh my.
-TM
-TM
schiavona:
Hard to say Grr with that in your mouth. Bet it comes out all gbbptt. 