louisiana

I have to, I must, I WILL make it through this day. I'm ok, I'm ok, I'm ok. I will drink water and eat gluten-free food and I will not feel sick.

Mornings are the hardest, I hope I can get home tonight and laugh at this. That poor thing, I will say, so sick every morning. But maybe feeling so fine from 10 am...
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I like when people shoot with film because it makes everything soft and honest. After all the bullshit, what's left is the film. I like it with nothing to hide behind.

I just read Rat Girl, which is a memoir of this woman Kristen Hersh who was in the nearly-famous band Throwing Muses. I like reading other accounts of bands and the transition between...
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Bad witch bad witch bad witch, I'm not always the best friend to have around. But no one's perfect right?




Today was my first day back at work. Pennsylvania was nice and weird. I decided I don't like Irvington NJ. I never, ever ever want to be there again.

Life without a car is humbling. Maybe things are too spaced out around here. I may...
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"You wanna dance with me?"



"Fine, never mind."




I thought I'd be so lonesome last night, but it actually turned out to be a nice little night to myself. Knowing that I won't always be terrible to myself when left alone with me is important. Oh, the nervous mess that's hiding under every well put together adult professional.

We had a tiny little itty bitty...
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It's not so easy, being a strange person. There's no way to hide it at all.












Today hurts a lot, it sure does. Here's hoping for a better tomorrow. Here's looking at you, Thursday.

Monday strikes again, and here I am. Would you believe me if I told you that I've been outside smoking a cigarette for the past 2 months?

Really though, I'm sorry I've been absent and didn't say goodbye. No one likes an audience when they're drowning. Against most odds I survived yet another truly outrageous plot twist. I'm alright. There's no phone to reach me...
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And now, for something really dirty...

Going to an open mic tonight after work. You all be safe and happy.

Poor and strange. Day six in my new life. I guess it's a good time of life to be a wreck.

I'm insanely busy with my weird work schedule, and still somehow so deep in poverty it's almost funny. I have some beautiful, unworn lolita dresses and some other cool clothing from before I turned into a completely fashion-less disaster. I'm selling two accordions, too...
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