Okay, so here's the thing. I shaved my head. And I love it. It's weird that so many guys have started showing me attention now rather than with my red, I guess I have confidence now. Cause you kinda have to when you have no hair to hide behind. But the main thing is this, I'm ready for love. It sounds so stupid and trivial but idc. For two years Iv been doing the causal thing and it's not really me. I like to pick one person to really invest my energy getting to know, because I don't want to open up to someone who's just a "casual" hang out. I don't do the open up thing very often unless I'm drunk and tweeting or calling my best friend. So if I'm telling someone my actual emotions, I kinda want them to stick around. Iv been hurt really bad by the same guy for 7.5 years and I'm done. There were two men over the past 2.5 years that made me see that I could fall in love with someone else, but they also weren't ready for what I am. And that sucks cause they were/are both really amazing men who I'd love to start something real with, but I get it. So with being a SG, I love my body. Not every second or every day, but in general. And it took me a long time to get there. So me posting my body on IG isn't for men, it's for me. And I'm very quick to cut a guy out if the first thing on our first date he wants to talk about is my modeling pics and shit. But like I said, I'm ready for love. So what do you do if you know what you want and the guys who are what you want aren't ready and the ones who are, are not what you want? You're probably gonna say, wait. But that's an awfully hard thing to do. 😔😔
