Couldn't sleep last night. This move to a new apartment in a couple days is getting to me. I have this nagging feeling in the back of my mind that once I move out she's going to end things and leave me on my own again. I know that's not true, but still...

I wanted her so very badly last night. Was really the main reason I wasn't sleeping. I was lying next to her in the bed and all I could think about was the times we used to make love and how very intense it was emotionally for the both of us. We're good together. We fit. She knows it, and I know it. She just won't acknowledge the fact right now due to the circumstances of my move and the relationship slow-down and it's eating me up inside. I have to believe she loves me. I have to believe she wants me.

Otherwise what do I have?

End of line....