lostidentity

I don't think I have ever been so relieved to be told 'no' by a woman. What a fucking psycho! I start telling her that it's going to take time to find what she's looking for and all of a sudden that translates into "I"m not supposed to be dating? Is that what you're saying? I think that's insulting! I"m about to hang up" and I feel like I've just been punched in the gut for saying something that wasn't my fault. Then I tell her "maybe we shouldn't be talking to each other" and somehow we agreed to talk, then I clear myself up and the rest of the conversation was great! Somewhere near the ending I was saying how I wasn't sure how comfortable she was with me cause I wanted to ask her out on a date. She said "well, I aint gonna ask you" implying that I have to ask her. Ok, cool. SO I get this email from her today and she says we're not clicking and I want to go our seperate ways. I'm like, ok, why the fuck didn't you say this last night? Then I realized, maybe its because I never asked her out on a date. And then a very big sigh of relief. Whoa! What the fuck was that? Something very odd that really turned me off though. And I know this will sound so stupid. She was telling me how she liked her son's Eminem music and I was like, ewww. I just had a picture of what her children would be like, and I"m just thinking that I woudln't want to be a part of that family anyway. I have no problem dating someone with kids. But someone who is in therapy and has three kids? I dunno. Maybe I"m fucked up for thinking like this and maybe I"m ignorant, but quite honestly, I really dont' care.