Addict
Do you remember that feeling from the first drug you ever did, be it nicotine, alcohol or my first shooting morphine. I’ve been chasing that feeling ever since. I have taken every form of pain killers, smoked and shot heroin, probably eaten twenty pounds of mushrooms and dropped acid in my eyes. I have smoked so much weed that I’m surprised I ever came down. I have huffed gasoline and airplane glue but truthfully my favorite has always been booze. I have snorted coke off of a hookers ass while fucking another hooker at the same time. Smoked crack once, I don’t like speed really. Rolled on mollys and found a K hole. I wondrously tripped on mescaline and the next day tripped on peyote. Participated in an orgy with a bunch of Asians on massive quantities of opium. Mainlined adrenalin. Get the jist of it? I chase the high and revel in the experience.
The problem always seems to be coming down and not becoming totally dependent on one single drug. Some can handle it while others spiral out of control into a pit of despair and many times death. I suppose this makes me a hedonist or just plain stupid but yes drugs have been the single most powerful, unscrupulous aspect of my life. Anyway there is a point I am trying to make here as you look down your nose at this addict.
Addiction is human nature with me it’s booze and stuff but with others it is food or sex or pain. Adrenaline or fear or both. We are all addicts. Some of us are wise enough to know their poison while others just wander stupidly through life like sheep. Everything in moderation even moderation itself. Fuck that where’s my beer…