Well I haven't been on here in quire a while. Life has just been way too hectic. hmmm....where to start. I've made the transition to living in Austin, Tx...sort of. It's been pretty hard to make friends besides my boyfriend's friends. I started hair school in Feb. Thought I was going to love it....but idk. I tend to glamorize things in my mind and I did the same thing with getting into hair. I thought it was just going to come natural to me and that it would be easy to get into the field I want (photo work and bridal). Now I'm realizing that's just not realistic.
So this has cause me to just not go to class a lot. And since these classes are 9-5 M-F it's even more of a struggle. I got suspended for being absent too much (which is weird from me cause I was never "this" student). I just don't know what to do now. I still won't be done with school til the end of Jan, so I don't know if I should just force myself through this then work at some salon just to pay the bills or figure out something that would make me happy.
But I don't know what the fuck makes me happy. Everytime I think something will make me happy I start getting into it and realize I could never do that job/career. I know that I love weddings and all of that, and watching "Say yes to the dress" really makes me want to get into that work but what is the likelyhood I could actually get into that line of work and make money. I also love makeup work...but just the same...can I pay the bills with it?
The whole thing is depressing. I feel depressed everyday I go to class. I feel like such a failure. sigh
So this has cause me to just not go to class a lot. And since these classes are 9-5 M-F it's even more of a struggle. I got suspended for being absent too much (which is weird from me cause I was never "this" student). I just don't know what to do now. I still won't be done with school til the end of Jan, so I don't know if I should just force myself through this then work at some salon just to pay the bills or figure out something that would make me happy.
But I don't know what the fuck makes me happy. Everytime I think something will make me happy I start getting into it and realize I could never do that job/career. I know that I love weddings and all of that, and watching "Say yes to the dress" really makes me want to get into that work but what is the likelyhood I could actually get into that line of work and make money. I also love makeup work...but just the same...can I pay the bills with it?
The whole thing is depressing. I feel depressed everyday I go to class. I feel like such a failure. sigh
amberetta:
*sigh* I feel the exact same way. I did the same when I was in cosmo school. Lost all my passion for it. Don't know what I want to do now. I feel stuck. I don't know what to tell you either. 