lorybeth

I'm officially an idiot. I have the most amazing guy who I am so so in love with. But I always end up being a bitch to him, everything he does I bitch about or get snippy with him. Then last night we went out and I turned into the drunk "i'm going to yell at my boyfriend in front of everybody". So we broke up in the middle of the club. He got shit faced so I took him home and took care of him. In the morning he was still saying that we just seem to butt heads and maybe this just isn't going to work....after bawling my eyes out and begging him we are still technically together but after I took him home we haven't talked. I know he just needs a little space but I am so upset right now. What the fuck is wrong with me? I have to ruin the best thing in my life...I just can't let myself be happy. I've been crying all day and have gotten sick a few times. I just need him to say we're worth and I'm worth him trying for. I feel so hopeless right now