lorybeth

well things had been going great for a while. i pretty much had things figured out for when i get out of the army next year. go to vogue beauty school or the paul mitchell school in austin, texas. the army was going to pay for my school and my housing. even though eric and i weren't 'technically" together when he left for the states, we were still talking on a regular basis. wellllllllllllllll of course it couldnt stay that good. eric went back to hanging out with his x girlfriend and even though he promised nothing happened i really dont believe him. his best friend was even talking to me about the whole thing, and confirmed any worries i had. so what the fuck, is there any point for me to keep talking to him, i get that they dated for a while and things dont just stop. but holy fuck the girl cheated on him so many times, let it go!! i fuckin hate this, we were fucking great when he was here. ive been planning on takng leave and flying to the states to see him. fuck is there any point now. and even though im not deciding to go to austin because he'll be there, now i wonder if i shouldnt go because he will be there...just fuck. fuck fuck fuck..