lorybeth

I swear everytime i blog on here its either because i feel like my brain is about to explode or because my heart is all fluttery. both make me feel like a big idiot!! im just about to go crazy in this fucking unit. in the fucking army. i hate this place so much i am tempted to reclass/re-enlist for like 3 years, so i can leave now and will only be adding another 2 years (probably less) to my contract. and i want out sooo fucking bad so for me to seriously be thinking about reenlisting just so i can get the fuck out of this place, its pretty extreme. i have to live in the barracks in a shitty ass room, ive been living in my own place since i was friggin 17 YEARS OLD! and now im living here, where i get in trouble because other ppl cant clean up after themselves after theyre done cooking, or because they leave their clothes in the laundry room. are you kidding me?? i feel like im going crazy here, i dont know what to do because i have to keep my emotions so in check here. i mean if i get an attitude with the wrong person, theres an article 15 for me which would bring more punishment. on top of that, my back feels like its being ripped apart everyday!! ohhhh but the doctor seems to think me doing a gay workout will help...HEY IT DIDNT HELP THE FIRST MONTH BUDDY ITS NOT GOIN TO HELP NOW!! i need a god damn break, i need out of these barracks, i need out of the army...i need out of this fucking life.....i thought things had gotten a little better, and in certain aspects it has...but not when it comes to me being a soldier in the fuckin army...i just want to be the girly girl that i am again. i want to go to hair school and try to make my way to working for runways and model shoots....until then i will be going insane, here on Kadena Air base, okinawa japan