Oh yah! I think I had a fucking panic attack last night. I don't know what it was but it sucked ass. About 3:00 in the morning my mind was racing and while that's nothing new, what was strange was I couldn't control it at all! I was extremely fidgety and wanted to walk outside but couldn't get myself to do it. I was practically shaking and all i wanted to do was hit things. I seriously wanted to throw my pets into the window too. Not like me at all. I'm all for violence, but not like that. Also I kept flip flopping in my mind as to what I want to do over the next few months. Every 5 minutes I went - move in with mom, work for 2months and then move to europe OR move in with mom, dump girlfriend and get and rent a room alone. EVERY damn 5 minutes.
Am I going crazy?
Oh and some good and bad news. I spoke to my landlord and I think he's going to let me out of my lease early so I can move in with mom for a few months and save some cash up for either europe or renting a room. Bad news? My mom offered to start me up with health coverage, at least so I can get a few things cleared up and get a checkup. But but but... I can't get health coverage, I was turned down. When I filled out my application I was honest (duh) and listed some health problems, most of which are pretty minor but fall under sweeping categories like back injury or intestinal disorder. Ugh. What was I thinking. So now I have to go elsewhere.
The rest of the week for me is basically school. We got a new software package that everyone is going to use and we're training for it all day thurs, fri and mon. It's the same one that all the major studios use, HBO, CBS etc. I'll probably pick it up quickly so I think the next few days are going to be boring.
Damn nothing interesting to write really. I think I have my quota of complaining in hehe. Still waiting for T3 to come out. I think the evil terminator is going to be great. I heard a few people complain that it's a woman. Oh come on, what could be scarier than a woman who can lift 10 tons and run 80 mph?
Am I going crazy?
Oh and some good and bad news. I spoke to my landlord and I think he's going to let me out of my lease early so I can move in with mom for a few months and save some cash up for either europe or renting a room. Bad news? My mom offered to start me up with health coverage, at least so I can get a few things cleared up and get a checkup. But but but... I can't get health coverage, I was turned down. When I filled out my application I was honest (duh) and listed some health problems, most of which are pretty minor but fall under sweeping categories like back injury or intestinal disorder. Ugh. What was I thinking. So now I have to go elsewhere.
The rest of the week for me is basically school. We got a new software package that everyone is going to use and we're training for it all day thurs, fri and mon. It's the same one that all the major studios use, HBO, CBS etc. I'll probably pick it up quickly so I think the next few days are going to be boring.
Damn nothing interesting to write really. I think I have my quota of complaining in hehe. Still waiting for T3 to come out. I think the evil terminator is going to be great. I heard a few people complain that it's a woman. Oh come on, what could be scarier than a woman who can lift 10 tons and run 80 mph?
your panic attack sounds familiar, I've been having summats similar over the past couple of months, stress related of course. Less than four months since I spent a day in casualty with a suspected heart attack, all brought on by stress and working too hard. Luckily nothing wrong but still
Manchester: it continues to piss on my strawberries. I applied to a college course there to do a degree in furniture design waaaay back and failed to get on the course; the modelmaking course here I ended up doing was my second choice, not sure if the end result was the best one but what the hell
and as for T3.... yeah, now that the final trailers are being shown, it actually looks like it could be pretty damn good. the Terminator films are my favourite SF flicks, saw T2 7 times at the cinema alone, god knows how often on DVD... was fully prepared for T3 to suck but it looks like they've thrown enough cash at it to at least have the look right, and with Stan Winston and ILM doing the effects at least half the battle's won. But Jim Cameron's missing and the story could be poop, so the jury's out till then... but I don't think we get it here till August, no fair