lori_

I'm so tired of this fucked up society. I hate it. I've been through some really terrible things in my life, and I took them for their experiences and used those moments to help other people, and teach people. I try everyday to be a good person, and I am, and a good mother, and i'm intellegent, i mean i'm almost holding a 4.0 in a physics/astrophysics double major, and i'm funny, and do a lot of really good things for other people, and none of that amounts to anything It doesn't matter because i'm not beautiful. I have all these other really great things that i am, but it doesn't matter if my appearence isn't aesthetically pleasing. That's what culture cares about, that's what REALLY matters. It's fucked up.

I was one of those unlucky people that when i got pregnant, i didn't bounce back, my stomache stretched out, Now my flabby tummy and stretch marks make me some kind of freak show, like i'm not a really person. It's fucked up because i worked my whole life to be a good person and make a positive impact on the world around me, and it's all wasted..no one notices because i'm not some hot girl. Fuck that! what's wrong with us that as a society we so willing to cut people out, make them less important if we aren't pretty enough or skinny enough. According to my doctor, i'm at the target "healthy weight" for my height, but in the mirror and to the people around me i'm a fat ass. Fuck our society and all the little minions of pop culture that define our culture. When is the fucking apocalypse going to get here already?