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Friday Apr 02, 2004

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Title: Je suis fatigue...

I just got some major bills and small debts paid. I'm keeping student loans at bay. My room has actual furniture (though it still needs a bed instead of an air mattress), and i'm about to start my spring offensive to find a job.

Life is somewhat good, but precariously unpredictable. Right now, time is ticking, and I have to decide on my future whether i'm ready or not. It's a heavy burden, one I don't want to lift, one i'm not prepared to lift. I still want my friends, my hobbies, my life. I don't want to give it all up yet just because it's a good decision. Am I a fool for being this way?

Writing for a sim group, USS Galaxy right now. So far, i'm doing some of the best stuff i've ever done on the sim. And that's nothing since it's just for fun. If I write for real, I can only imagine what will be in store for me.

That day will come. Oh yes. It will come.

Here's something from my Poetry Kicks Ass post. If I could write music I would, but since I can't i'll just have to settle for poetry written in the style of music lyrics. Enjoy!


Kind of I Want To
By Lord_Shade

Give me a moment, not sure I believe you
I guess, dont know, I kind of I want to!
It seems that I have no choice in the matter
I want you, I

I dont know if shes so perfect, a stranger
I cant, I try, but I cant rearrange her
Fires in my mind, want to know, want to make sure
Its got me, oh.

A plague coloured black through my head it seeps
Churning my thought, concentration it eats
Saying the cures with you when we meet
A simple feat, no.

Give me a moment, not sure I believe you
I guess, dont know, I kind of I want to!
It seems that I have no choice in the matter
I want you, I

Can you be in love with a girl with no name?
Or do you question my yearning, or ask if Im sane?
Or push me and say go back to where you came?
I do not know, oh.

In love with the idea, dont know who she is
What is she made of, or maybe shes his?
How can I tell if Im allowed this?
Let me know, oh.

Give me a moment, not sure I believe you
I guess, dont know, I kind of I want to!
It seems that I have no choice in the matter
I want you, I

I want something or someone and I dont know who it be
But Im in love with the idea, and a pictures all I need
Whether shell appear or not Ill just have to wait and see
I want to
I want to
Betray Common sense!
And all the advice that says its just best
That I dont love, I dont feel
I dont care, I can heal
Though I scar my heart is still complete
The longing you just cant defeat!

I have yet to meet you, that day I look forwards
Ill change my goals so that I move towards
The day I see you, my beauty, my reward
For something, oh

Give me a moment, not sure I believe you
I guess, dont know, I kind of I want to!
It seems that I have no choice in the matter
I want you, I

Give me a moment, not sure I believe you
I guess, dont know, I kind of I want to!
It seems that I have no choice in the matter
I want you, I

malloreigh:
the late leningrad and i are leaving town.

might as well spring the news. your favourite saturday afternoon hangout will be one employee emptier this week.
Apr 2, 2004
demonika:
Hey, thanks for the welcome! kiss
Apr 3, 2004

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