I should make this a real update but right now isnt a good time for it. Im in a lot of pain, very tired, cant move around very well, and not in the best of moods, plus Im pretty well medicated. I had my back surgery on friday, spent two days in the hospital and now Im at my moms house which is the part I hate. i get to be with my dog which makes me happy for now, I really want to bring her home with me. But anyways on a good note i haven't cut myself since that first time although the urge has been there. The main reason i didn't do it was because i didn't want all the fresh cuts on me when I went in for surgery since my mom works there and knows all the people, I really didn't need her to find out. I really want to do it again but for now it has to wait. Plus I promised my counselor or atleast I promised I would call her if I got the urge and was about to do it, although I have a feeling that isn't going to happen the first time I really need it at this point. But anyways I'm board as hell sitting here, I dont have any friends down here anymore, not that I have a lot to start with but they all have left here. I just want to get back to Tallahassee even though I'm just going to end up back in school. Im not looking forward to this summer, I get 4 weeks of school total thats it and the first 2 are here. The second 2 is after summer classes and I'm planning on jumping in my truck and going for a road trip to nowhere just to get away for a bit. Once I get back up to Tally I'm going to start looking for a dog, I think having one around will do me a lot of good and calm me down a bit.
Well for now that's all Im going to write I want to lay down and relax for now my back is killing me. I will post a proper blog later on. On a parting note here is something funny that a friend sent me about cats and dogs you should read it, it's very true.
Well for now that's all Im going to write I want to lay down and relax for now my back is killing me. I will post a proper blog later on. On a parting note here is something funny that a friend sent me about cats and dogs you should read it, it's very true.
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brightredscream:
Take care of you ♥
thisbe:
I thought about taking summer classes, but I'm just so burned out on school. Good luck with your classes.