I am head-over-heels smitten. It feels really fast, although we've known each other for a year. I don't know... can I trust that it's right this time? I know only time will tell, but things feel great right now.
He'll be helping me move tomorrow. I'm just moving to another apartment in the same building. It gets more light, is cheaper, and is away from...
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He'll be helping me move tomorrow. I'm just moving to another apartment in the same building. It gets more light, is cheaper, and is away from...
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ferretbite:
Your bf looks like a demon from the whedonverse in that image.
wsoxfan:
Beitiful, just beautiful. You look so happy. I'll also remember not to mess with you, as I want to avoid going to the hospital.
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wsoxfan:
I'll give you the same advice I'm giving myself these days. GO FOR IT!
My goodness, it amazes me how our lives have paralleled each other since we began communicating.. You're obviously in a good place now. I can't tell you how happy that makes me.
My goodness, it amazes me how our lives have paralleled each other since we began communicating.. You're obviously in a good place now. I can't tell you how happy that makes me.
wsoxfan:
I've felt the same way for almost the whole time we've known each other. I propose that we do what we can to help each other continue on the positive path we both seem to be on. Agreed?
I placed 3rd in forms and 1st (!) in sparring in my division. Awesome.
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wsoxfan:
VERY awesome. Congrats. You've come a long way.
laceyk:
That is great!
I should stop fucking martial artists.
No, wait. I recant that statement.
So, so good.
No, wait. I recant that statement.
So, so good.
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wsoxfan:
I think being involved in something you're so passionate about is great. Especially if it's something that builds your confidence and self esteem like martial arts.
wsoxfan:
I see where I originally read your post wrong. Keep on doing what you're doing.
What happens when it's been too long, by my very ridiculous standards? I develop a crush on the worst person possible. I can think of many reasons why hooking up with or dating this person would be a terrible idea. Let's hope I can keep it in my pants.
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wsoxfan:
You've made some wonderful changes in your life in recent months. I have faith that you'll do what's best for YOU.
s_eldorado:
Thanks love, that means a lot.
My choice would be to go have some fun - as long as you're able to keep your heart intact and set boundaries with him and yourself beforehand.
Sometimes in those situations I find the best course is to start dating a couple of people at once. I know that sounds crazy but if you're up front about it with both of them, then it automatically sets boundaries and expectations. For them and you.
Either way, good luck, beautiful.
My choice would be to go have some fun - as long as you're able to keep your heart intact and set boundaries with him and yourself beforehand.
Sometimes in those situations I find the best course is to start dating a couple of people at once. I know that sounds crazy but if you're up front about it with both of them, then it automatically sets boundaries and expectations. For them and you.
Either way, good luck, beautiful.
One of you told me he was worried, so I wanted to update.
I saw my nutritionist, we worked out a plan, and everything should be OK. I'm still having a little but of food terror, but it's manageable and I'm doing what I should be doing.
In other news, I haven't had sex since January. I have a feeling this isn't going to last,...
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I saw my nutritionist, we worked out a plan, and everything should be OK. I'm still having a little but of food terror, but it's manageable and I'm doing what I should be doing.
In other news, I haven't had sex since January. I have a feeling this isn't going to last,...
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nadzofsteel:
Easy.
Tell him he's got to leave.
Tell him he's got to leave.
Nutritionist tomorrow. I can do this. I can change what I'm eating and not freak out. Deep breathing...
I just hate that food is so much on my mind lately. It reminds me of the bad old days, even though I'm not engaging in the bad old behaviors.
Plus I have to spar 6 rounds in this tournament. If I don't eat properly, I'll drop.
I just hate that food is so much on my mind lately. It reminds me of the bad old days, even though I'm not engaging in the bad old behaviors.
Plus I have to spar 6 rounds in this tournament. If I don't eat properly, I'll drop.
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ferretbite:
Of course you can. Use the butt kicking for motivation, it's quite powerful
kingskottie:
hey you... nutrit it out baby!
I'm hoping if I post these thoughts here they'll leave my head then evaporate.
I'm having bad body image and wanting to lose weight, but I'm pretty sure losing weight would have me teetering on the edge of unhealthy at this point. And being a waif would not help my Taekwondo.
I'm having bad body image and wanting to lose weight, but I'm pretty sure losing weight would have me teetering on the edge of unhealthy at this point. And being a waif would not help my Taekwondo.
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s_eldorado:
New profile pics! I like!
Yeah, sometimes it really helps just to have someone "official" set boundaries for the thought process. At least it does for me.
Yeah, sometimes it really helps just to have someone "official" set boundaries for the thought process. At least it does for me.
galaxy42:
No... no weight loss for you. You're beautiful the way you are. Waifs get their asses handed to them in taekwondo...
It's official! Martial arts tournament + me, last weekend in March. Time to step up my training.
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radmonkey:
cool. what martial art do you train in? I used to do taekwondo and go to tournaments. You're the first person I've come across on SG who does that.
radmonkey:
I did three tournaments: one when I was a yellow belt, lost to the first person. Then I got a gold medal as an orange belt. Then I think I was a green belt when I did the last one. I fought so hard the first match my lips turned blue, basically just outlasted the first guy who got tired. Then I didn't have much left for the second guy and I lost, I think I still got a bronze medal.
I usually got gold in forms, but that's of course a lot different from fighting people you don't know
I "retired" from TKD when I was a red stripe; I moved, but also I didn't really feel I was committed enough to go to tournaments as a black belt, so it was the logical time for me to stop.
Now I do aikido, which at my dojo is actually pretty intense. But there's no competitions. Although seminars are a rough equivalent because you're doing aikido all day.
Nice to have another academic around, helps motivate me to post more about things I'm actually interested in
Good luck! train hard, make us proud!
I usually got gold in forms, but that's of course a lot different from fighting people you don't know
Now I do aikido, which at my dojo is actually pretty intense. But there's no competitions. Although seminars are a rough equivalent because you're doing aikido all day.
Nice to have another academic around, helps motivate me to post more about things I'm actually interested in
Good luck! train hard, make us proud!

And family can surprise you sometimes, for proof, read my journal about my encounter with Yazgirl's fam.
I'm going to have to wait and see where my latest attempt at companionship takes me. I feel that it's prudent to let her take the initiative going forward, but perhaps I'll suggest that we go to a particular party or other BDSM related function at some point if she doesn't reach out to me in a similar way in the near future.
She did email me to tell me that she enjoyed my company and that I should stay i ntouch. Pretty generic stuff, but at least it's not negative.
I hope we can both continue moving forward on the road to happiness and fulfillment.