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I'm happy with some parts of life; I'm even very happy with them. I love the relationships I'm able to have with people now that I'm healthier, for example.

I'm less happy with other aspects of my life, mainly academia and work.

I think I'll spend the next several months reevaluating the parts of my life that I'm less content with. I'm not the person...
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ferretbite:
I have felt a lot like that recently.
wsoxfan:
You've come a long way in your maturity. You're traveling on the right path toward physical and emotional health.

As I follow your progress, I get a growing sense of satisfaction for having been permitted to travel this road with you.
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I'm doing better. My university assured me that I will not only have the 2 classes I requested for the fall semester, but I will have them at the Manhattan (as opposed to the Bronx campus). Much, much better.

As for my ESL job... I need to talk to those fuckers. The amount of money I'm not making there barely makes my working there worthwhile.
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wsoxfan:
What a nice thing for you to say. Actually when both my daughters were growing up, all of their friends told them that they had the coolest dad. I guess that designation led to my having the coolest children. I'm sure my older daughter would support me too, even though she's somewhat more conservative than Heather.

I'd be remiss if I didn't mention Annette's role in raising my daughters as well.
radmonkey:
thanks for your thoughts...good to hear from a fellow traveler in these conundrums.
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You know, I'm not even 100% sure I want children, but it's still really depressing to hear another academic say that, when she chose her career path, she felt she had to give up the idea of having kids.

The way the job situation looks for academics in my field right now, I might have to give up on a lot of things. Paying my...
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wsoxfan:
Are you talking about layoffs, or finding a job in the first place?

The powers that be are so shortsighted. Institutons that don't generate income always suffer cuts first. Money seems to be what our priorities continue to be.
wsoxfan:
It's a damn shame that educators get the short shrift. Our priorities are so out of whack.
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I told my best friend last week that I love Greg. Yes, I know it's fast, but I'm very sure. Anyway, yesterday he told me he loves me. And then before I said anything, he asked me not to. He told me to take 48 hours to think about it before responding, because he feels like people can feel pressured to say it immediately after...
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wsoxfan:
I know I can count on you to understand.
siamkittie:
Awww...that's so sweet. Things happen when you know the time is right and everything feels right. Only you would know that. Fuck everyone else. tongue

And thank you for the vote of confidence. The phone interview went well today, but I'm still nervous about it.

Btw - you look beautiful in your profile pic.
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I am head-over-heels smitten. It feels really fast, although we've known each other for a year. I don't know... can I trust that it's right this time? I know only time will tell, but things feel great right now.

He'll be helping me move tomorrow. I'm just moving to another apartment in the same building. It gets more light, is cheaper, and is away from...
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ferretbite:
My answer to that question would be don't think it just live through it.

And family can surprise you sometimes, for proof, read my journal about my encounter with Yazgirl's fam.
wsoxfan:
I love hearing this from you. Try not to worry about what your parents might think. This is your life and you need to live it in a way that will make you happy. Case closed.

I'm going to have to wait and see where my latest attempt at companionship takes me. I feel that it's prudent to let her take the initiative going forward, but perhaps I'll suggest that we go to a particular party or other BDSM related function at some point if she doesn't reach out to me in a similar way in the near future.

She did email me to tell me that she enjoyed my company and that I should stay i ntouch. Pretty generic stuff, but at least it's not negative.

I hope we can both continue moving forward on the road to happiness and fulfillment.
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ferretbite:
Your bf looks like a demon from the whedonverse in that image.
wsoxfan:
Beitiful, just beautiful. You look so happy. I'll also remember not to mess with you, as I want to avoid going to the hospital.
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wsoxfan:
I'll give you the same advice I'm giving myself these days. GO FOR IT!

My goodness, it amazes me how our lives have paralleled each other since we began communicating.. You're obviously in a good place now. I can't tell you how happy that makes me.
wsoxfan:
I've felt the same way for almost the whole time we've known each other. I propose that we do what we can to help each other continue on the positive path we both seem to be on. Agreed?
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I placed 3rd in forms and 1st (!) in sparring in my division. Awesome.
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wsoxfan:
VERY awesome. Congrats. You've come a long way.
laceyk:
That is great!
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I should stop fucking martial artists.

No, wait. I recant that statement.

So, so good.
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wsoxfan:
I think being involved in something you're so passionate about is great. Especially if it's something that builds your confidence and self esteem like martial arts.
wsoxfan:
I see where I originally read your post wrong. Keep on doing what you're doing.
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What happens when it's been too long, by my very ridiculous standards? I develop a crush on the worst person possible. I can think of many reasons why hooking up with or dating this person would be a terrible idea. Let's hope I can keep it in my pants.
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wsoxfan:
You've made some wonderful changes in your life in recent months. I have faith that you'll do what's best for YOU.
s_eldorado:
Thanks love, that means a lot.

My choice would be to go have some fun - as long as you're able to keep your heart intact and set boundaries with him and yourself beforehand.

Sometimes in those situations I find the best course is to start dating a couple of people at once. I know that sounds crazy but if you're up front about it with both of them, then it automatically sets boundaries and expectations. For them and you.

Either way, good luck, beautiful.
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One of you told me he was worried, so I wanted to update.

I saw my nutritionist, we worked out a plan, and everything should be OK. I'm still having a little but of food terror, but it's manageable and I'm doing what I should be doing.

In other news, I haven't had sex since January. I have a feeling this isn't going to last,...
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nadzofsteel:
Easy.
Tell him he's got to leave. smile
wsoxfan:
Yeah, Lizabeth has proven to be a woman of common sense and a good friend to me, as has been the case with you.

Something I neglected to mention in my above post. It's actually a question. Is there really such a thing as "meaningless sex"? When you get to my age, any sex has meaning, LOL.
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Nutritionist tomorrow. I can do this. I can change what I'm eating and not freak out. Deep breathing...

I just hate that food is so much on my mind lately. It reminds me of the bad old days, even though I'm not engaging in the bad old behaviors.

Plus I have to spar 6 rounds in this tournament. If I don't eat properly, I'll drop.
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ferretbite:
Of course you can. Use the butt kicking for motivation, it's quite powerful
kingskottie:
hey you... nutrit it out baby!