lola

I've been pretty depressed all of today...for some reason it feels like my life is not headed in a good direction or I can't figure out what to do with my future...I'm trying not to think about it and just focus on work and school and the present...it's probably not helping my depression that I'm listening to sad sounding music, but I bought this cd on Sunday and I can't stop listening to it. It's "Dreamatorium" by Death Cube K. I hadn't heard it since like '99 and I found it in the used electronica section at Amoeba records. It's sooo good, Bill Laswell and Buckethead. I don't know why, but whenever I'm depressed I can only listen to sad music. It's like I have to force myself to be as sad as possible before I can break through it get back to feeling "normal" again. Whatever normal is. ~Lola