The Good
One of the things I had to consider when thinking about living with my mom is that I need my own space. This is a big part of why we sold both houses and moved into a new bigger house, part of that plan was to set aside money to create a nice outdoor space for me. Well that spaces is almost finished. I can't wait to have some friends over towards the end of the month and cook them some pizza. Now if only we could stop having tornado warning causing weather....
The confusing
My girlfriend likes to tell me about these fantasies she has of watching other women sexually please me. These fantasies are almost always centered around getting my cock sucked by some beautiful woman, but not being allowed to touch her or do anything further. These are always tough fantasies for me to get involved in because if I show too much interest in them, I run the risk of sparking jealousy. I can't really blame her as I know I am too possessive to entertain fantasies of her with another man in any way, but since she is instigating them it is hard to find the line of feeding her fantasy and pissing her off. Anyone experienced this kind of tight rope walk with a significant other?
The other
I've had some terrible dreams lately, mostly about losing my dog. I think part of this is because she's getting older, and it is hard to watch knowing that I will eventually have to say goodbye to her. She is my canine soul-friend. This has made getting to sleep tough as my mind just races all the time worrying about this or that (one of my best/worst qualities).
The Ugly
I worry about my mother, her health mental and physical especially. She seems older than she should be at her age. She talks a lot about cancer, she seems almost fixated on it. Which suggests to me that she still hasn't come to terms with the loss of my father. I wish I could help her move on with her grieving, I worry that she is stuck and slowly losing her desire to live. At best she's in a sort of grief purgatory destined to live the remainder of her days in limbo.
