it suddenly got really cold here... we had to go get more firewood and we still have yet to pull off a completely successful fire... finally making an effort to write some more and it's coming along slowly, but i'm proud of what i have done... getting really tired of this writers block shit... looking forward to the 19th when i will finally be allowed to walk again... just hope the doctor doesn't come up with some new excuse to make me wait another month... 3 1/2 months of laying around is long enough and i really want my life back... i mean, who can feel good about themselves when they are so completely helpless? 