This is bad.. and getting worse..
My working hours keep coming up short and I'm beginning to feel the weight drag me down. Slowly sinking and getting deeper, blacker, and just sad. I can still feel tears underwater, I hope that's normal. One of the worst parts is, I cant start my climb back up until Ive hit bottom, however in this case.. the bottom is still unknown. That's terrifying. I can handle a lot of different situations but I wonder about that unknown.. What if I cant handle it? What if I cant manage myself? What's going to happen when I get there?
Fear..
My working hours keep coming up short and I'm beginning to feel the weight drag me down. Slowly sinking and getting deeper, blacker, and just sad. I can still feel tears underwater, I hope that's normal. One of the worst parts is, I cant start my climb back up until Ive hit bottom, however in this case.. the bottom is still unknown. That's terrifying. I can handle a lot of different situations but I wonder about that unknown.. What if I cant handle it? What if I cant manage myself? What's going to happen when I get there?
Fear..
are you ok....... ?
Don't be silly...... i think a lot has changed in the last 2 weeks....
update.