liquids

I've been so looking forward to my day off, I got a new, better job, the love of my life is truely starting to forgive me, I should be a bowl of delightful young daisies, over floweth, but I am not, I am a deep dark hole of sullen particles. there is a strange sickness in the pit of my stomach thats not really in my stomach, everything feels sickning, i dont know what to do with myself.......I am static, restless tired static, definitions are fustrating to me right now. ...this feeling will be gone , just not soon enough......