I'm sorry for that last journal entry. I wrote it in the morning after not being able to sleep all night (forgot to take my medications) and felt very angry and upset by that point.
We scattered Grandma's ashes in the bay today, from the same pier where my family scattered Grandpa's ashes so many years ago. I hope Grandma and Grandpa are together now,... Read More
I dont really have hobbies, I just love to read, travel, and play online, if you really want a hobby, go toward things you really love, and create a hobby out of that.
I have to put a real entry up. The Internet is really starting to get on my nerves. So often it brings out the worst in people. I peeked at the boards earlier. What an awful place. At least on the Animal Crossing forums you don't get foul-mouthed people being vicious to each other, but you do get kids who spam and argue and break... Read More
I would be sad if you left, but you do have to do what is best for you, and thats all that matters...i have been lucky, I havent had any issues here, and people have been nice, whihc is why i stopped going to the myspace boards, because those people were horrible...
You may or may not remember me babbling about making an extension for Firefox that corrects mispellings of "definitely". I ran into some roadblocks, but today I found a forum about making such extensions, and I found a script that does what I need. I modified it to not only correct misspellings of "definitely", but also:
Your little gaycorn is supercute. I think no explanation is necessary!
AHHHH MINESWEEPER! I was so addicted to that in like 1998. Man. Good times. This was way before I had MySpace and SG, though. I don't know how anyone actually manages to work these days...
I have never been able to get into art. I don't know what is wrong with me.
At a young age, I would be at my grandma's visiting dad and I would have a stack of plain white paper or dot-matrix printer paper and would draw all sorts of crazy stuff with markers and pencils. I would spend hours drawing, and my visits to dad... Read More
you like what you like. you dont have to appreciate something just because others do. why feel sad or empty because something doesnt do it for ya?? you have interests that many others dont have. be happy with what you like. i do think people should look into other things. like how you go to a museum but its doesnt do much for ya. instead of just writing it off but. if you go and dont like it well you move on to something else.
If it helps at all, I really don't find the Mona Lisa visually appealing at all. I think she's kinda weird-looking in a not-very-good way and the background's all murky.
I like going to see art, but only so much of it really kicks my ass and makes me love it... maybe 1 or 2 things in 50, or so.
I have been getting some seriously helpful and insightful comments from my friends lately, here and elsewhere. You guys are great. Thank you.
Rather than post a new journal entry and "hide" the old one, I'll leave it in the spoiler below if you want to comment on it. I was pretty surprised by the comments I got on it so... Read More
I've also quit a lot of Groups lately, but am interested if there's any good ones I might've missed. I joined a couple new ones but hadn't really checked them out yet.
I certainly don't think everyone has to be sexual. I mean, sexuality is kinda like a nice cake or milkshake- good in its place, but with some negative aspects, and not necessarily for everyone. I think its better for the world, in diversity and in expediture of brain power, if not everyone is into the exact same things, and people turn their thoughts and imagination to what's outside of the mainstream.
I know for me it's been hard to appreciate what I have. I keep obsessing on not having Perfect Job, how much people like me, and the fact that I don't really have my future planned out. I should work some on the latter, but worry is not work. Just simple appreciation of the great things that have gone on this year is in order... and my work is long hours and low pay, but I don't have to deal with customers. I have to remind myself of the hellride of my last job's customers and how I've been away from that for almost a year!
Since I'm answering a bit late, Flux seems to have made points I was going to make. I read your journal when you update, even when I don't comment, and over the past year and more, there's been a trend about you first questioning your sexuality, deciding on what was good for you, and then embracing it.
At the same time, the history of your profile on the left (for those who've bothered reading it over the past year) have also shown an inexperience, or disgust, or questioning (depending on your mood at the time, I guess) about how to deal with sexuality in general. I seem to recall for 'Fantasy' you had something like, 'Away with your fantasies!' So, really, for those who've paid attention, it's not too much of a stretch to see where you might've been heading. (Whether you want those of us paying attention to do so is another matter. )
Princess Toadstool was in my dream in human form this morning. It was awesome. I was sort of in control of the dream, but I was sort of letting things happen, influencing events as they went along. That's usually the way my dreams go these days.
A group of interdimensional travellers had captured a criminal in another dimension and brought him to a prison here... Read More