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Surely you can't be serious!
I am serious. And don't call me Shirley.

Can I even express to you how much love I have for the Firefox Adblock extension? I'm not sure I can. Man it rocks. Ohhh I love it so much. If you know how to use wildcards properly you can pretty much browse the entire internet and never have to see another ad. Maybe that's exaggerating but I haven't seen an ad in days. And I'd like to keep it that way

Also, since I don't always feel like seeing boobs whenever I look at SG I've blocked the preview images for sets. I guess that's kind of lame. Oh well.

I also adore the Firefox Paste And Go extension. It isn't a very complex extension, it only really adds one small level of functionality to the browser... but it makes life a snap*. If you copy a URL to your clipboard, just bring up Firefox and press Ctrl+Shift+V. Firefox browses to that URL instantly. And you can change a setting so it opens it in a new tab. Magnifique.

* Is it funny that just as I typed the word "snap" I bit the tip of my tongue? Poetic justice or something?

I forget if I've said so here before but I do not like giving the finger. Nor "throwing the devil horns". I've also started to watch how I say things on the internet. All because I think these things make me look like such an asshole.

I guess that's funny with me having a profile pic in which Annie is giving the finger. But she can get away with it because she's cool. It just looks bad on me.

Of course you know what she did in the next picture, right?

That one's a two-parter. I could NEVER get away with THAT.

I was reading a forum post somewhere else (see if you can guess where), and the person was saying that a very danceable track was not long enough. That song is seven minutes long.

I can see that seven minutes really wouldn't be long enough if you want to dance to a song. And I actually do hope I get to hear a thirteen+ minute version of that song. But if your point is to sit there and listen straight through an album and not dance, seven minutes is looooooong.

Hey that rhymed.

I need to get out more. Seriously. This is bad bad bad. Whether or not it's true I'm developing agoraphobia, I still need to get out more no matter what.

Moving is going to be a very positive step in my life I believe. I shouldn't look to it like it's going to solve all my problems, because it's not. (It might even add some.) But maybe moving is the spark I need to get moving. So to speak.

I really need to ask people for advice on a couple things: what to eat, and what to do to get out of the house.

Number 1: What to eat?

I don't know what to eat anymore. The major depression I'm starting to come out of really ruined my appetite. And part of the problem is I'm an extremely picky eater. I also get sick of foods that I eat a lot. The solution to this, of course, is to eat a wide enough variety of foods that I don't have a chance to get sick of anything. It's bad that I basically eat the same three things for dinner on a rotating basis*. REALLY bad.

* Rice pilaf, tomato rotini soup, and... I don't think there's a third. Crap.

I'm curious about tomato-sauce-free pasta dishes. I am so damn sick of tomato sauce it's not even funny. And white sauces are too overwhelming for me, so cheeeesy. I want to explore pasta just made with butter. And maybe some garlic flavor. It can't be that hard. I should just try to be brave and boil up some pasta and throw in a lump of margarine and sprinkle liberally with garlic powder. Surely I can make something a little nicer than that though. And that is obviously not very nutritious.

I eat WAY too much Easy Mac for my own good. The problem is I'm also lazy about cooking, so anything from a box will have precedence over things that require buying separate ingredients and putting them together using a special method (i.e. cooking). Microwaveable things get even higher precedence. Luckily I hate most microwave dinners. Gross.

Really, my nutrition is very poor and I need to fix that or I'll continue to be unhealthy. It probably isn't doing much to help the depression. I'm afraid to weigh myself again.

Number 2: What to do to get out of the house more?

Going to the library probably doesn't count for getting out of the house. My psychiatrist specifically said I'd need to do things that stretch myself a bit, because the way I live now I have a tight control on everything. I restrict everything I do until I'm not doing much of anything anymore.

Of course, writing a 3-or-more-page-long journal entry every single day is not helping matters! I've actually stopped looking at even the groups here on SG. Well, I look at the groups, but I don't post in them, unless it's to revive my puzzles group after several days of neglect (my poor group ) And forget about the boards. I'm not a fan.

So it would seem I'm stepping away from the internet, right? Sorta. I've even stopped posting in my livejournal.

But then I'm working on an Annie fan site. And I chat with Redbeard3 every night.

I DO NOT want to stop doing these things, naturally. Being an internet addict I want to believe I can learn to lead a healthy, productive life and still have room for my internet activities. Redbeard3 seems to be good at it... and he has good advice for me on this subject.

Mom actually has had this same problem, really. It's only recently she's been starting to go to concerts and things. Even with that she still doesn't get out much. At least she works.

I am a fan of legitimate thee-yay-ter. AND my great aunt could probably hook me up with free tickets to Strathmore shows. I should really take a look at what sorts of shows are going on there and have a chat with my great aunt.

Man, even my aunt aunt has this problem. She's addicted to her blog. Even worse, she doesn't drive. When her husband was away in Kurdistan she was going stir crazy. The beach vacation helped her with that. And now the semester has started and she's back to teaching.

In other words, I need a job Arggggggh. It's going to be rough going finding myself a job. I could never do it right and I have IMMENSE anxiety about job hunting. If moving helps motivate me to look and apply, I'll be relieved.

After talking with Redbeard3 tonight I've realized I may just have to go with something like an administrative assistant. Without a degree it's much harder to get hired as a programmer. It can be done, but do I have that kind of confidence? Doesn't sound like it. Unfortunately that's not a lot of money and I'm not sure I could afford to pay rent and buy myself food.

Sigh. What to do.

Okay I've just gone over the 4 page mark in Word and that's a sure sign I need to stop. THEE ENDD.