I suppose I should update for the new year, right? MollyMolly and I had a great New Year's Eve, talking online as usual. The day had started off not-so-well, but things turned around and my time with Molly was just wonderful and happy. 
This was the second New Year's Eve we spent online together. Much has changed since last time, and hopefully for the better. Here's to a bright future, for Molly, for myself, and for all of you. *raises glass of non-alcoholic, non-caffeinated beverage*
I have something I need to learn, and maybe I can make a silly little resolution out of it. I never learned to type the numbers and symbols at the top of the keyboard. I can touch-type just fine, and I can do the number pad to the right of the letters, but I can't do the numbers at the top. This is where you come in: I don't know where I can find software or something online to teach me. Any suggestions? Ideally I'd like to find something free, but cheap will do, too. As long as I'm not spending more than, say, $10-$15 for it.
My posting frenzy on the boards has fizzled a bit. I don't really feel interested in posting a lot there right now. Molly observed that my interest in it comes and goes, anyway, and I think she's right. It has been really nice to actually make new friends, though.
I set my MySpace profile to private, after getting frustrated with getting a bunch of random messages and friend requests. I can't decide whether I want to stay on that stupid site or not. I don't feel at all motivated to keep my journal there updated or really do anything with my profile. I have some friends there, but I don't really keep in touch with anyone. I'm torn, because I really hate MySpace a lot, but it's useful for staying in touch. Whatever happened to Friendster? I think I cancelled my account there.
I'm having more panic attacks again.
I think that staying at home and not going out much has really worsened them. I had a panic attack yesterday on the way to, during, and on the way home from my therapy appointment. My therapist suggested that I've kind of been giving in to my agoraphobia, resulting in more panic attacks. That sounds right to me. It makes me sad and a little angry that the lifestyle I prefer -- staying at home and living a pretty reclusive life -- makes it so hard to survive in the "real world".
I have to ask myself whether I really want to stay at home all the time, though. I didn't really mind going to school, and I gradually had fewer panic attacks as the semester went on. And thinking to the future, when I will have a job, I definitely don't want my job and therapy appointments and such to be the only reasons I ever leave the house. I want to go out and do things I enjoy, like going to the zoo or the library.
So maybe that can be a real New Year's resolution: get out more and work on my agoraphobic tendencies. I don't intend to become a total social butterfly, going to parties and bars and stuff, 'cause that's really not my thing at all. Maybe I can find a place that has free cultural events nearby. There is a center for the arts in my town, but shows are not free. There is an exhibition gallery, though. Really, I should just hop on the Metro and visit the museums downtown. I'm always saying that, though, and never doing it.
I need a guide to things in the city so I know where to go and what to do.
I think if I got out more, I would (hopefully) be less vulnerable to panic attacks after a while.
Well, anyway, it's something to think about.
I haven't gotten glasses yet. I'm going to try to go to a bunch of places on Saturday and get a good deal. Wish me luck; I'm nervous.
Happy 2007 to you all.
This was the second New Year's Eve we spent online together. Much has changed since last time, and hopefully for the better. Here's to a bright future, for Molly, for myself, and for all of you. *raises glass of non-alcoholic, non-caffeinated beverage*
I have something I need to learn, and maybe I can make a silly little resolution out of it. I never learned to type the numbers and symbols at the top of the keyboard. I can touch-type just fine, and I can do the number pad to the right of the letters, but I can't do the numbers at the top. This is where you come in: I don't know where I can find software or something online to teach me. Any suggestions? Ideally I'd like to find something free, but cheap will do, too. As long as I'm not spending more than, say, $10-$15 for it.
My posting frenzy on the boards has fizzled a bit. I don't really feel interested in posting a lot there right now. Molly observed that my interest in it comes and goes, anyway, and I think she's right. It has been really nice to actually make new friends, though.
I set my MySpace profile to private, after getting frustrated with getting a bunch of random messages and friend requests. I can't decide whether I want to stay on that stupid site or not. I don't feel at all motivated to keep my journal there updated or really do anything with my profile. I have some friends there, but I don't really keep in touch with anyone. I'm torn, because I really hate MySpace a lot, but it's useful for staying in touch. Whatever happened to Friendster? I think I cancelled my account there.
I'm having more panic attacks again.
I think that staying at home and not going out much has really worsened them. I had a panic attack yesterday on the way to, during, and on the way home from my therapy appointment. My therapist suggested that I've kind of been giving in to my agoraphobia, resulting in more panic attacks. That sounds right to me. It makes me sad and a little angry that the lifestyle I prefer -- staying at home and living a pretty reclusive life -- makes it so hard to survive in the "real world".
I have to ask myself whether I really want to stay at home all the time, though. I didn't really mind going to school, and I gradually had fewer panic attacks as the semester went on. And thinking to the future, when I will have a job, I definitely don't want my job and therapy appointments and such to be the only reasons I ever leave the house. I want to go out and do things I enjoy, like going to the zoo or the library.
So maybe that can be a real New Year's resolution: get out more and work on my agoraphobic tendencies. I don't intend to become a total social butterfly, going to parties and bars and stuff, 'cause that's really not my thing at all. Maybe I can find a place that has free cultural events nearby. There is a center for the arts in my town, but shows are not free. There is an exhibition gallery, though. Really, I should just hop on the Metro and visit the museums downtown. I'm always saying that, though, and never doing it.
I need a guide to things in the city so I know where to go and what to do.
I think if I got out more, I would (hopefully) be less vulnerable to panic attacks after a while.
Well, anyway, it's something to think about.
I haven't gotten glasses yet. I'm going to try to go to a bunch of places on Saturday and get a good deal. Wish me luck; I'm nervous.
Happy 2007 to you all.
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I study Art History and Philosophy. I hope to one day open a fetish art gallery. Me and Martini have the same major!