linkismyhero

I have to put a real entry up. The Internet is really starting to get on my nerves. So often it brings out the worst in people. I peeked at the boards earlier. What an awful place. At least on the Animal Crossing forums you don't get foul-mouthed people being vicious to each other, but you do get kids who spam and argue and break the rules.

One of the boards I frequent is so severely moderated that there will be at least five locked threads on page one. I'm tempted to post in a thread I know will be locked with "long live Big Brother!" The woman who moderates that board is pretty unkind, too, I have to say. She just says the name of the appropriate thread with a link, or she says actual mean things (earlier: "no (this), no (that), no breaking the rules, do not pass go". That place is bad enough with the stupid kids running amok, but she has to make it even more unpleasant?

I used to feel like the Internet was the one place where I could fit in somewhere, but now I feel like I don't fit in anywhere. I guess I've always felt that way to a certain extent anyway, and just kept trying and trying and hoping it would be OK, but since Grandma died I feel more disillusioned than ever.

I have really enjoyed all the time I've spent with my family since Grandma passed on Wednesday, crazy as my family is. It doesn't feel insane and scary like it does here on the Internet. I'm starting to question how I want to spend my time, now.

Do I really want to be on SG anymore? It doesn't feel good at all here. I'm fed up with 99% of this site, and 99% of its members. I've paid for a year which expires in February.

Maybe I can play a little game. See how long I can stay away before I have to give in and post something new.

Would you ever see me again?